mimizu
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I wish I could watch anime, but I can't last watching a video for 25 minutes...
I wish I could listen to music, but searching for music is too hard, and I am bored of my old music.
I wish I could read, but reading is too tiresome for me and I can't focus.
I wish I could go outside... but no one is waiting for me there. After 1 hour at the park or at the beach alone it gets pretty boring... so I come back home, where I have nothing to do either.
Also, I can't go out because I have no good clothes and no money to buy them, and everything I wear looks bad on me. Nobody wants to associate with me.
I wish I could play games... but I'm no good at games.. after half a hour I give up. Being bad at games upsets me and makes me feel worthless. One time I played some flash game about a bunny that jumps on clouds, and I got only 16,000 points while the girl who showed me that game got 2 million.. I can't play FPS online because everybody would just cut me up, and I can't play MMORPG's, because it's boring alone and because I can never be persistent enough to get a high level... the highest I ever got was level 32 in Conquer Online. I have no idea how people get to level 100... -_-
I wish I could go to work but I can't find a job. But even if I found a job I would probably last only 2 or 3 weeks at max... I wouldn't be able to bear the boss yelling at me and all my coworkers ostracizing me (or worse, making fun of me) every day.
I wish I could improve my self esteem, so that somebody would associate with me, and I would have more energy to play games and watch things, making me happier... because if you live a fuller life, you get more energy to do even more things... but it takes a lot of work and patience to build up your confidence.. and I don't have the energy for that. +_+
I wish I could learn something new, but learning is a lot of investment... I have no energy for that, and I have no energy to read long things. I usually have like 7 wikepedia pages open, and I never read any wikipedia article fully... I just can't. I always have many many browser tabs open because I can't read anything in a single gulp, so I leave it "for later", then just open something new... etc. I hate having so many tabs. Eventually I just close them all and then I have nothing interesting to read.
I wish I could learn a craft, like building models, or electronics... but again, no motivation, no idea where to purchase the materials... etc.
My life is so empty and pointless... I wake up, and just spend a whole day being bored numb until I go to sleep again...
I wish I could die, but I'm scared of going to hell, and I can't think of a good method.
I wish I could listen to music, but searching for music is too hard, and I am bored of my old music.
I wish I could read, but reading is too tiresome for me and I can't focus.
I wish I could go outside... but no one is waiting for me there. After 1 hour at the park or at the beach alone it gets pretty boring... so I come back home, where I have nothing to do either.
Also, I can't go out because I have no good clothes and no money to buy them, and everything I wear looks bad on me. Nobody wants to associate with me.
I wish I could play games... but I'm no good at games.. after half a hour I give up. Being bad at games upsets me and makes me feel worthless. One time I played some flash game about a bunny that jumps on clouds, and I got only 16,000 points while the girl who showed me that game got 2 million.. I can't play FPS online because everybody would just cut me up, and I can't play MMORPG's, because it's boring alone and because I can never be persistent enough to get a high level... the highest I ever got was level 32 in Conquer Online. I have no idea how people get to level 100... -_-
I wish I could go to work but I can't find a job. But even if I found a job I would probably last only 2 or 3 weeks at max... I wouldn't be able to bear the boss yelling at me and all my coworkers ostracizing me (or worse, making fun of me) every day.
I wish I could improve my self esteem, so that somebody would associate with me, and I would have more energy to play games and watch things, making me happier... because if you live a fuller life, you get more energy to do even more things... but it takes a lot of work and patience to build up your confidence.. and I don't have the energy for that. +_+
I wish I could learn something new, but learning is a lot of investment... I have no energy for that, and I have no energy to read long things. I usually have like 7 wikepedia pages open, and I never read any wikipedia article fully... I just can't. I always have many many browser tabs open because I can't read anything in a single gulp, so I leave it "for later", then just open something new... etc. I hate having so many tabs. Eventually I just close them all and then I have nothing interesting to read.
I wish I could learn a craft, like building models, or electronics... but again, no motivation, no idea where to purchase the materials... etc.
My life is so empty and pointless... I wake up, and just spend a whole day being bored numb until I go to sleep again...
I wish I could die, but I'm scared of going to hell, and I can't think of a good method.