Yesterday I felt like this.
I walked around my home looking for a place to hang myself from.
I seat and cried. I felt moor sorry for myself then I have in years.
I wished I was dead. To idol even to go out side and look for a tree.
There is no good place to do this in my home. Am not thankful for that right at this time.
But I do live for another day.
Am not one for feeling suicidal.
I have only felt like that a hand full of times in my life.
I had posted on a suicide forum be for about it.
I was just in the process of deleting a few things on my PC be for I went fro with what I wonted to do and come across that site that I had bookmarked it from abort a year ago. I visited that place again and posted something. A thread. I got some good replies and one that helped a little.
Life can be hard. It really is for some ppl.
this can be hell for some of us.
Isolation and loneliness and a feeling of not being wonted by the world really do kill.
Check it out. You might find it useful. I don't go by the name Bluey there BTW just in case your wondering.
http://www.suicideforum.com/index.php
A video that kinder reflects my mood atm
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