talkstowalls
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Hi everyone, I'm a 19yr old male in Houston. While I have mostly overcome my fear of shyness I am still unable to develop any sort of relationships that I feel have any substance. I was largely a loner through high school your cliche geek/nerd and obese. About 3 years ago I begun to rigorously exercise and diet and have since lost 80lbs. After doing this my shyness greatly diminished however my social skills were still awful. I feel they have gotten a bit better since then but still have no friends. I now think what keeps me from making friends is often my intelligence, weird thoughts, and interests. I feel like alot of my peers are walking cranial vacuums, void of any critical thought, just waiting to suck up the next bandwagon trends. I am a self taught musician and can play several instruments, but in the recent years my focus has been on producing/audio programming. I like to read, specifically alot of psychology and philosophy, and play games. I feel largely my life has been me embracing forms of escapism. I long to stop trying to mentally escape mine but rather change and embrace it.