Hi everyone,
I'm new to this forum, and I already see myself doing what I tend to do in forums: Read posts and log out. I read the tips for getting the most out of an online support community and it suggested I post and not just lurk to get more out of it.
I will give a little background about myself and why I'm here. My twin sister, who is also my best friend, recently moved away. I live in California and she now lives on the East Coast. We've never been apart before. It's been extremely difficult. And now it's extremely lonely. I didn't realize how few girlfriends I had until my built-in best one left me, or maybe I realized it and just didn't care. It didn't matter to me; I had my sister. I was happy.
I have ONE....only ONE....other girlfriend that I can call, but the "friendship" is extremely one-sided, in that she talks, I listen, then she makes up an excuse to get off the phone. I even started writing down her reasons for getting off the phone because they became so comical and unrealistic. Her e-bay auction is ending so she needs to go. Really???
Anyway, I feel some comfort in knowing I'm not alone in my loneliness. I wish I could muster up the courage to do things alone. I did EVERYTHING with my sister, shopping, eating out, movies, everything I wanted to do with a friend. Now I just feel stupid doing anything alone. I know I need to get over it, but it's hard. I did force myself to go to the mall alone the other day, but it almost made me feel worse. I found myself texting my sister everything I wished she was there to hear me say. It just made me miss her more and made me a little sadder actually.
Okay, enough of my story. I just wanted to introduce myself and make a post. Mission accomplished.
Amy
