I've been working on being positive for the past couple of weeks.
I'm not the most pestimitic person in the world , however I still
had mental and emotional baggages. Yeah, a bit of negative thinking.
This is what my sponsor told me what to do. Be positive
and be happy. It would be so much easier for me to crawl
back into my cave and feel sorry for myself. But I've been
there and done that..and I don't want to go back there.
I got sick and tire of being sick and tired. I became willing
to change and do whatever it takes.
Being positive didn't killed me...it was good for me.
I've been able to meet poeple face to face male and female.
Basically just interacting with poeple. People are talking to me
more in general...becuase I'm not as negative anymore. I made
myself avaliable and approchable and wasn't too cuaght up in
my head.
I had lunch this past week with a very beautiful woman. A friend
I knew. She's even more pretty than my ex-gf.
A white girl of course...you know how it is...
I was minding my own business and just ran into her...
She waved me down . I simply asked her if I can join and have
lunch with her. She said yes. I wanted to say to her. "you're hawt
and lets fresia"
....but no, I just interacted with her...being positive,
being in the moment. We flirted as always. I complimented her, not
just on her looks but the things she was saying to me what's she
been doing. 95% of the time I was just listening to her. I'll say
things to make her laugh every so often. She gave me her phone #
and her e-mail. She also gave me a big hug when we parted...
She was laughing and being herself or didn't feel uncomfortible being with me,
otherwise she woud't had told me all those things about herself.
Not at one time i was negative nor complained about my life or
even mentioned my EX'gf name when i was having lunch with my friend.