help, 8 years after leaving high school, im still struggling to get into the university.
i finished high school at the age of 15 and im now 23. i was never a serious student. all i wanted to do was have fun with my friends who were the most popular girls on campus.i had a very low self esteem and my pimples, big lips and big nose made matters worse. i was always teased about them by every one (even by my so called friends). so it was kinda a priviledge to be accepted into their group. i mean dese girls were hot and pretty. guys drooled for them. i so desperately wanted to fit in.
i spent more time trin to fit in and feel as beautiful as them than facing my books. i wanted my name to be on every guy's lips just like them, i wanted to be the hot, crazy girl.
FOOLISH ME! as beautiful as they were, they were smart. they had plans for the future. i on the other hand did not dream beyond high school walls. and even when i did, it never occured to me i had to be seriuos to acheive my dreams (um well, every thing will just fall into place)
my friends graduated and i did not. i re-took final exams (in my country in africa) to complete my papers. i kept on failing. when i finally passed, i was not qualified for the school i wanted. i wanted that school cos it was a party school. lets just say i wanted my freedom to be well enjoyed (stupid me).
i settled for a polytechnic at the age of nineteen with a lot of plans. i was ready for hardwork. all that was short lived. my boyfriend and i broke up at the begining of my first semester which sharttered me. just to console myself, i fell for a guy that was extremely nice and crazy about me. and then my problems began again. this guy had really bad records with the school. but he loved me so much and i wanted to be dere for him. i wanted to help him change. wats that saying about evil communication corrupting good manners. besides he made me feel undescribable tins in bed!
he had lost his focus which i allowed to rub off on me. he got me into so much mess that i became the talk of lecturers and students. i also wanted to have fun cos i din wana feel like i was missing out wen i din get accepted into my choice of school, so someone in my situation would have needed a focused person.
my good grades dropped, i got pregnant and aborted 2ce. my four yrs studenship has expired with carry overs. my mates are back for their HND and in their final year. all my high school mates have graduted some even married. here i am still trin to get into the university to start my life afresh and late. my best friend from high school is pregnant and getting married.
a typical girl where i come from finishes university at at least 22, gets a good job and get marriied. no guy wants to marry an old girl.
every day is filled with regrets. especially wen i look at my poor, low income wage good father. who has so little yet offered me the best. i feel like such a wasted effort. i regret it the most when there are financial issues and i wuld have been able to help. although no one is complaining or thinking about that. they love me so much.
right now i plan on getting into a school which will take me 6 yrs to complete instead of the normal 4. i cant take anymore o'levels exam again and wait till the end of the year to gain admission. (dats d way our schoolin system is). the school is located in an state which is far from lively and social compared to the state i grew up. its gana be a big problem but wat do i do. i just have to do this.
someone please reach out to me im so miserable. i have no drive and each day i wonder wat my life would have been like. are/have you been or do u knw some1 in a similar situaton. pls reach out cos i hate my life so much right now
i finished high school at the age of 15 and im now 23. i was never a serious student. all i wanted to do was have fun with my friends who were the most popular girls on campus.i had a very low self esteem and my pimples, big lips and big nose made matters worse. i was always teased about them by every one (even by my so called friends). so it was kinda a priviledge to be accepted into their group. i mean dese girls were hot and pretty. guys drooled for them. i so desperately wanted to fit in.
i spent more time trin to fit in and feel as beautiful as them than facing my books. i wanted my name to be on every guy's lips just like them, i wanted to be the hot, crazy girl.
FOOLISH ME! as beautiful as they were, they were smart. they had plans for the future. i on the other hand did not dream beyond high school walls. and even when i did, it never occured to me i had to be seriuos to acheive my dreams (um well, every thing will just fall into place)
my friends graduated and i did not. i re-took final exams (in my country in africa) to complete my papers. i kept on failing. when i finally passed, i was not qualified for the school i wanted. i wanted that school cos it was a party school. lets just say i wanted my freedom to be well enjoyed (stupid me).
i settled for a polytechnic at the age of nineteen with a lot of plans. i was ready for hardwork. all that was short lived. my boyfriend and i broke up at the begining of my first semester which sharttered me. just to console myself, i fell for a guy that was extremely nice and crazy about me. and then my problems began again. this guy had really bad records with the school. but he loved me so much and i wanted to be dere for him. i wanted to help him change. wats that saying about evil communication corrupting good manners. besides he made me feel undescribable tins in bed!
he had lost his focus which i allowed to rub off on me. he got me into so much mess that i became the talk of lecturers and students. i also wanted to have fun cos i din wana feel like i was missing out wen i din get accepted into my choice of school, so someone in my situation would have needed a focused person.
my good grades dropped, i got pregnant and aborted 2ce. my four yrs studenship has expired with carry overs. my mates are back for their HND and in their final year. all my high school mates have graduted some even married. here i am still trin to get into the university to start my life afresh and late. my best friend from high school is pregnant and getting married.
a typical girl where i come from finishes university at at least 22, gets a good job and get marriied. no guy wants to marry an old girl.
every day is filled with regrets. especially wen i look at my poor, low income wage good father. who has so little yet offered me the best. i feel like such a wasted effort. i regret it the most when there are financial issues and i wuld have been able to help. although no one is complaining or thinking about that. they love me so much.
right now i plan on getting into a school which will take me 6 yrs to complete instead of the normal 4. i cant take anymore o'levels exam again and wait till the end of the year to gain admission. (dats d way our schoolin system is). the school is located in an state which is far from lively and social compared to the state i grew up. its gana be a big problem but wat do i do. i just have to do this.
someone please reach out to me im so miserable. i have no drive and each day i wonder wat my life would have been like. are/have you been or do u knw some1 in a similar situaton. pls reach out cos i hate my life so much right now