hi, I'm Skiee
Glad to be here. I'm lonely. I live alone. I have a wonderful little place out in the country. I own 3 horses and I think about 13 cats, inside outside. I have to say if it hasn't have been for them I think I'd probably be crazy by now. I have a job where I see my co workers everyday, a few I can talk to freely, but basically things are kept rather professionally. Ive been alone and on my own for about 4 years now. Ive had some tragic things happen to me relationship wise. I was married for only 6 months. My husband turned out to be really abusive and he lied about his income and he was drinker, it was a mess. Then he came down with cancer on top of this and died. I went to his viewing just to make sure he was really gone. Isnt that awful? The truth is, he was that awful, a really bad person.
So here I am with 13 cats and 3 horses. Ive tried to date again but have had a really hard time of it. It seems every man Ive ever really loved has turned out to be either abusive or has rejected me, or both. I'm saying it seems this way. If this has been my script I'm out to change this now.
Ive changed a lot in 4 years so being a lone has it's good points when it comes to personal growth, but I'm at the point now where I'm starting to get fed up with living like this. I mean it gets stressful sometimes knowing that if anything happened the only person who is going to save me or get me out of it, is me. I get afraid.
I ride one of my horses a lot and if I fell off and couldn't move, who would know? I hate thinking about things like this but I do, sure I carry a cell phone, but if I was knocked out, there I'd be, probably for a long time. I pride myself for being so brave and I chose archetypes for myself too keep myself going. Sometimes I'm a frontier women, and others I'm Joan of Arch. I don't know if I have really chosen this for myself or if this is just the way things are. I think I really have a good ability to help others and through this I know I will be able to help myself as well. So this is why I'm here and why I have 3 cats sleeping on my bed. thanks, Skiee
Glad to be here. I'm lonely. I live alone. I have a wonderful little place out in the country. I own 3 horses and I think about 13 cats, inside outside. I have to say if it hasn't have been for them I think I'd probably be crazy by now. I have a job where I see my co workers everyday, a few I can talk to freely, but basically things are kept rather professionally. Ive been alone and on my own for about 4 years now. Ive had some tragic things happen to me relationship wise. I was married for only 6 months. My husband turned out to be really abusive and he lied about his income and he was drinker, it was a mess. Then he came down with cancer on top of this and died. I went to his viewing just to make sure he was really gone. Isnt that awful? The truth is, he was that awful, a really bad person.
So here I am with 13 cats and 3 horses. Ive tried to date again but have had a really hard time of it. It seems every man Ive ever really loved has turned out to be either abusive or has rejected me, or both. I'm saying it seems this way. If this has been my script I'm out to change this now.
Ive changed a lot in 4 years so being a lone has it's good points when it comes to personal growth, but I'm at the point now where I'm starting to get fed up with living like this. I mean it gets stressful sometimes knowing that if anything happened the only person who is going to save me or get me out of it, is me. I get afraid.
I ride one of my horses a lot and if I fell off and couldn't move, who would know? I hate thinking about things like this but I do, sure I carry a cell phone, but if I was knocked out, there I'd be, probably for a long time. I pride myself for being so brave and I chose archetypes for myself too keep myself going. Sometimes I'm a frontier women, and others I'm Joan of Arch. I don't know if I have really chosen this for myself or if this is just the way things are. I think I really have a good ability to help others and through this I know I will be able to help myself as well. So this is why I'm here and why I have 3 cats sleeping on my bed. thanks, Skiee
