aspeckofdust
Well-known member
I feel like I've been here before, but I'm pretty sure I never made an account.
Anyway, well, I've suffered from loneliness for a long time now it seems like. I guess it can be blamed on a number of things. Shyness. A low self-esteem. Possible mental illness (depression if nothing else, because normal people aren't supposed to feel like I do, are they?). Those reasons aside, I'm a very lonely person in general and as I've gotten older, I feel like the effects of it are getting even worse.
I have very few friends who I don't see often and, of course, no girlfriend (although I think at this point, I'd consider a boyfriend). I want a person who could be both a partner and a best friend. I guess that's what most people want. I think I would be happy then though, if I had that person. They would be the center of my life. I would worship them and love the hell out of them, no matter what. I'm not saying I would settle for just any person. Obviously there'd have to be common interests among other things.
I'm not sure where I was going with this. I just wanted to explain my situation a little I guess.
So, why am I here? It's not just to post so I can feel sorry for myself and end up feeling even more miserable. I want to fit in somewhere. Any forum I've ever posted on, I never seem to fit in, no matter how hard I try to do so. I know that's not guaranteed to happen, that I could easily end up disappointed here too, and I'm aware of how whiny I sound by saying that at all, but best to be truthful, right? :|
Anyway, well, I've suffered from loneliness for a long time now it seems like. I guess it can be blamed on a number of things. Shyness. A low self-esteem. Possible mental illness (depression if nothing else, because normal people aren't supposed to feel like I do, are they?). Those reasons aside, I'm a very lonely person in general and as I've gotten older, I feel like the effects of it are getting even worse.
I have very few friends who I don't see often and, of course, no girlfriend (although I think at this point, I'd consider a boyfriend). I want a person who could be both a partner and a best friend. I guess that's what most people want. I think I would be happy then though, if I had that person. They would be the center of my life. I would worship them and love the hell out of them, no matter what. I'm not saying I would settle for just any person. Obviously there'd have to be common interests among other things.
I'm not sure where I was going with this. I just wanted to explain my situation a little I guess.
So, why am I here? It's not just to post so I can feel sorry for myself and end up feeling even more miserable. I want to fit in somewhere. Any forum I've ever posted on, I never seem to fit in, no matter how hard I try to do so. I know that's not guaranteed to happen, that I could easily end up disappointed here too, and I'm aware of how whiny I sound by saying that at all, but best to be truthful, right? :|