lovableplatypus
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My sister and I were drunk with some of our friends. We were talking about childhood stories. She told us all she used to not like me at all, when we were kids.
I mean when I think of it I know she didn't always like me. She used to bully me a lot but in our teens and nowadays we are somewhat good friends. I just never realised it as a child. I didn't always like her because she bullied me but I also always generally liked her. I always enjoyed her company, even as today. Idk how to feel about that. But why didn't she like me? I have no idea. I never asked. We don't talk about those things, we never will. I just don't understand. I always liked her company but at the same time she could be so mean. This is the thing from being a baby to this day.
Hearing her saying it just kind of broke my heart there and then. She was a bully to me and never defended me etc but somehow we always went through stuff together. We never discussed these themes. We just went along with whatever we had. But to hear her say that she didn't like me at all as kids breaks my heart.
It's been over a year since she said it. I don't even know if she remembers saying this. All my life I've always felt bad about myself and felt inferior about everything and sometimes this memory wants to destroy everything.
I mean when I think of it I know she didn't always like me. She used to bully me a lot but in our teens and nowadays we are somewhat good friends. I just never realised it as a child. I didn't always like her because she bullied me but I also always generally liked her. I always enjoyed her company, even as today. Idk how to feel about that. But why didn't she like me? I have no idea. I never asked. We don't talk about those things, we never will. I just don't understand. I always liked her company but at the same time she could be so mean. This is the thing from being a baby to this day.
Hearing her saying it just kind of broke my heart there and then. She was a bully to me and never defended me etc but somehow we always went through stuff together. We never discussed these themes. We just went along with whatever we had. But to hear her say that she didn't like me at all as kids breaks my heart.
It's been over a year since she said it. I don't even know if she remembers saying this. All my life I've always felt bad about myself and felt inferior about everything and sometimes this memory wants to destroy everything.