i am finally making my life better.

[zwan]

Well honeysuckle I have been gone quite a while haven't I? My deepest apology to anyone who stressed that I did the"deed".

Well where to start. Ok 1st I feel a lot better(through a lot of soul searching, a trip half way across the world, a lott of booze cigarettes tears and also finally finding a physical hobby (mma).

2nd I don't have ms thank you whoever is looking out for me. I do have a thing called a intention tremor no one knows why I just figured its a birth defect.

Well that's covering the major points.

Ok know with my life. I am doing wellish probably living each day by day. Barely passing my subjects but passing nonetheless. Hopefully receiving my degree at the end of the year. I also have a 9 to 5 (sales its shitty but it pays the bills for now). I also do odd jobs for extra cash. Nude modeling for one.(Don't worry not porn but for art students).

Overall my love life is a ******* mess. But to be honest it makes the mundane activitys of day to day a hell of a lot more interesting. I may have a problem because slowly I am becoming a hell of a ladys man. Maybe this is a hobby as well. I do drink a bit too much these days which may be a problem but I'm quite certain I can handel that problem.

Ok know that you guys know how is it going in my life. I would love to thank every one of you out there who commented on my thread, gave wise words and support or even just went through the trouble of reading it. If I could I would personally see each and one of you and give you a hug buy you a meal and just say thanks.

If anyone ever has thoughts of suicide or is in a very dark and cold place please by all means email me, bbm me, what's app me, add me on facebook, or even call me I will list my details at the end. I know its a hell of a messed up place as you have seen through my posts previously. And I may give you some advice at the time. Or even if you just want contact.

Have fun everyone
Ill try and post a then and then and tell you how is it going.
Zwan

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And if anyone is going through trouble with what I experienced just reverence them to.me.

 

[IgnoredOne]

I don't know you, but I've been in a similar place before. I'm proud that you're doing better. Everything will be, more or less, uphill now.

 

[biscuits]

That's great news Zwan, good form there buddy!

Keep pushing for the degree it will be worth it. Sad to hear the love life is still a mess but you can always step back with that one if you need to, I'm a bit jealous hearing you're a lady's man, I'd love to just have coffee with a nice lady.

If I can suggest something to keep in mind, try ease off the too-much-booze thing, slowly if you can, so you can eventually manage it better. Sure it's fun and who hasn't spent days in a high drunken stupor, but our bodies will fail after years of this abuse. It sounds lame, but true: healthy body equals healthy mind.

Good form on the mma, I am a year into kungfu and I mean when I say after a couple months, as you grow stronger, you can really notice you coping better with life, stress and everything. It's quite something. don't give it up!

Geniet die Paas naweek, Zwan!

 

[SofiasMami]

Well Hi, zwan, I was wondering how you were doing. Seems like the last time we heard from you, you were headed to Asia for a holiday and one of your threads re-ignited my interest in Pablo Neruda. Glad to hear things are looking up - do keep us posted on how you're doing.

Teresa