Maybe this forum has just got some magic that sucks me in...
Let me introduce myself, I am an 24+ yo asian from Singapore, a country that is like a prison that you cannot be yourself.
Just feels like the place I am living in does not suit me(screw up). Hiding in my room frozen is kinda my life from boring and useless social circles(screwed up again). A diploma holder in Mechanical Engineering with a 3rd year specialization in Biomedical field, what the hell? Lost interest and market demand is not there(screwed up x3). Found a goal in life that is to seek a discipline in Japan culture and it requires me to stay there for one year, but parents object it as this field of education earns you nothing, which in the end, I have to fight selfishly for it(screwed up big time). Parents want me to study in a university as having a degree earns me much, but I understand my brain is not for this, I object it for I am a not an intelligent person, I rather be a robot, it shows that it is giving something that I never wanted and never asked for(screwed up dunno for how long). That's where no one understands.
Bet you people wanna know if I have a girlfriend, well, I think the question is how long has it been without a girlfriend? That answer will be my age.
I am young but my heart is old, I look rugged and my body is starting to fail me mentally. Got a backache for a month so much I would not care about my health. F 'ed myself over.
Society in this world has moved towards an age of financial imperialism, everything is money. The rich get richer, the poor gets poorer. I earn the least in the family, my two elder brothers earn the most, 2nd eldest is an operation manager, skilled in smoke bombing people and the eldest is an IT manager, impatient and kinda angry man. I usually think of the positive things in them but not this time. And I am just a incompetent worker still earning to achieve my goal with some f up colleagues verbal stabbing at my back even though I have finished my work. F my life.
At least I have a kind heart which will probably make me a fool. I have close friends and most of them have family problems. Being a very good
friends, I lend them money to support, and the total debts I needed to collect is SGD$5040 and that is close to USD$3896. Worse, my 2nd brother who is earning much still owes me SGD$300. I am not rich, I am a thrifty person. But the money has yet to return to me. Still I know they are not that ******* to run away. But the money is affecting my goal in life. F 'ed by others.
Some of you think that I have many friends but I am just feel lonely. And I can tell you that those without friends may not feel lonely.
There are so many things to talk about. Thanks for reading this but putting this out just makes me feel better.
Let me introduce myself, I am an 24+ yo asian from Singapore, a country that is like a prison that you cannot be yourself.
Just feels like the place I am living in does not suit me(screw up). Hiding in my room frozen is kinda my life from boring and useless social circles(screwed up again). A diploma holder in Mechanical Engineering with a 3rd year specialization in Biomedical field, what the hell? Lost interest and market demand is not there(screwed up x3). Found a goal in life that is to seek a discipline in Japan culture and it requires me to stay there for one year, but parents object it as this field of education earns you nothing, which in the end, I have to fight selfishly for it(screwed up big time). Parents want me to study in a university as having a degree earns me much, but I understand my brain is not for this, I object it for I am a not an intelligent person, I rather be a robot, it shows that it is giving something that I never wanted and never asked for(screwed up dunno for how long). That's where no one understands.
Bet you people wanna know if I have a girlfriend, well, I think the question is how long has it been without a girlfriend? That answer will be my age.
I am young but my heart is old, I look rugged and my body is starting to fail me mentally. Got a backache for a month so much I would not care about my health. F 'ed myself over.
Society in this world has moved towards an age of financial imperialism, everything is money. The rich get richer, the poor gets poorer. I earn the least in the family, my two elder brothers earn the most, 2nd eldest is an operation manager, skilled in smoke bombing people and the eldest is an IT manager, impatient and kinda angry man. I usually think of the positive things in them but not this time. And I am just a incompetent worker still earning to achieve my goal with some f up colleagues verbal stabbing at my back even though I have finished my work. F my life.
At least I have a kind heart which will probably make me a fool. I have close friends and most of them have family problems. Being a very good
friends, I lend them money to support, and the total debts I needed to collect is SGD$5040 and that is close to USD$3896. Worse, my 2nd brother who is earning much still owes me SGD$300. I am not rich, I am a thrifty person. But the money has yet to return to me. Still I know they are not that ******* to run away. But the money is affecting my goal in life. F 'ed by others.
Some of you think that I have many friends but I am just feel lonely. And I can tell you that those without friends may not feel lonely.
There are so many things to talk about. Thanks for reading this but putting this out just makes me feel better.