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lonely2beeme
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i feel so lonely, i feel so utterly alone.i have my children but they are getting older and needing me less.what will i do when they no longer need me?
i don't have a single friend . i don't know a single phone number to anyone anywhere.i never have a phone bill more than hook up charge when my children call to say they will be late coming home from school ,or to call a ambulance or taxi.
i have no relatives ,no family get togethers.i don't have a job atm.i never get out never go to bars ,i don't drink.
i have some how alienated myself into a prison of my own making.i live in japan even tho i am american ,and japanese men don't date older women especially ones with children or who are not very thin.
i just want to go home again, be a child, enjoy high school ,everything i was in such a rush to be over with and now realize i didn't enjoy,never went to prom,skipped graduation ceremonies,never had a wedding party,never had a baby shower.i feel i missed out on life.
i feel trapped in my life and sinking at the same time
how do i make it stop?i just want to smile and laugh again.
i feel for everyone else who feels lonely enough to type "i am so very lonely " into google .
i don't have a single friend . i don't know a single phone number to anyone anywhere.i never have a phone bill more than hook up charge when my children call to say they will be late coming home from school ,or to call a ambulance or taxi.
i have no relatives ,no family get togethers.i don't have a job atm.i never get out never go to bars ,i don't drink.
i have some how alienated myself into a prison of my own making.i live in japan even tho i am american ,and japanese men don't date older women especially ones with children or who are not very thin.
i just want to go home again, be a child, enjoy high school ,everything i was in such a rush to be over with and now realize i didn't enjoy,never went to prom,skipped graduation ceremonies,never had a wedding party,never had a baby shower.i feel i missed out on life.
i feel trapped in my life and sinking at the same time
how do i make it stop?i just want to smile and laugh again.
i feel for everyone else who feels lonely enough to type "i am so very lonely " into google .