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What do you do when you have extreme social anxiety of a certain place which happens to be school in my case because you've been labeled as "bad and immoral" or something and I just can't stand all the dirty looks and rude stares I keep getting I just want to disappear.Just being there makes me feel like I'm suffocating and my heart clutches in my chest it hurts.I have to be in school in 8 hours but all I feel like doing is curling up in a ball and crying.I hate my life and myself and most people.I have no idea why I'm alive anyway.I have no hopes,dreams,or goals,no boyfriend,not many friends,if happiness could be measured then I have zero.I do have a home and a family which I'm grateful for but when you're lonely and depressed and just plain miserable it doesn't matter if you're homeless or not,it's all misery anyway.I just wish I find something that actually brings me happiness.My 18th birthday is in 10 days and I know what's it gonna be like.Weeping day.Just like the year before was..Sometimes before I sleep I pray that I just die sleeping but I still wake up everyday.. Sorry about the pointless talk,I just needed to write it down,it makes me feel better.[/i]