SighX99
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I feel like girls never give me their time of the day... sure they look and stare at me and check me out. But if I try to do something with them they won't give me a chance... It's not like I'm ugly or something. i do have peculiar taste in music and movies. But I feel like girls generally just don't like me. I'm confident, cool headed and all that. I work out, do martial arts and my bodys in great shape. I don't get nervous. But when I try and be friend with a girl they close up and don't want to pursue for more with me... I just don't get it. Most of the time I blame it on luck. I seemed to be cursed. (there is a legitimate reason for it, as there was something went on that was kinda superstitious with my grandfather, how he was supposed to marry a female ghost but he never did. so now in my mind that she might be cursing me/haunting me, since I'm the eldest son's eldest son. some Chinese superstition that eldest son's eldest son is important.)
what the hell is wrong with me? I think I'm just destined to me alone for my entire life. I just don't get how people can just pick up a girlfriend easily and stay together for one year+. It seems impossible for me to accomplish.
sure someone right will come along in my life, but i cant carry that notion for the rest of my life. what if someone doesn't come or I already missed that right one?
I have only had one real gf in my entire life, and that lasted almost 5 months. I feel so incompetent and shitty. how i couldnt keep her, and she ended up leaving me because "she felt stagnant" when in reality we do grow together. I treated her with everything I had. she said I was the perfect bf for a while. now she doesnt even care about me. i hate my ******* life. I cant stop focusing on how single I am. sure relationships are a ***** and can hurt, but fresia i miss that so bad.
I'm gonna go get really messed up now on drugs. to forget about today. I have been sober for a long time, but today is just pure honeysuckle. I can't stand seeing couples in public anymore. i want what they have so bad. I do all these activities and try not to focus on my singleness but it DOESNT FUCKIN WORK. still single. fml
what the hell is wrong with me? I think I'm just destined to me alone for my entire life. I just don't get how people can just pick up a girlfriend easily and stay together for one year+. It seems impossible for me to accomplish.
sure someone right will come along in my life, but i cant carry that notion for the rest of my life. what if someone doesn't come or I already missed that right one?
I have only had one real gf in my entire life, and that lasted almost 5 months. I feel so incompetent and shitty. how i couldnt keep her, and she ended up leaving me because "she felt stagnant" when in reality we do grow together. I treated her with everything I had. she said I was the perfect bf for a while. now she doesnt even care about me. i hate my ******* life. I cant stop focusing on how single I am. sure relationships are a ***** and can hurt, but fresia i miss that so bad.
I'm gonna go get really messed up now on drugs. to forget about today. I have been sober for a long time, but today is just pure honeysuckle. I can't stand seeing couples in public anymore. i want what they have so bad. I do all these activities and try not to focus on my singleness but it DOESNT FUCKIN WORK. still single. fml