NoMoreHope
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Loneliness creeps under your feet, and grows and eventually consumes you. I forgot the feeling of happiness a long time ago. The sad thing is, i am only 16. I don't have any friends, i am not bad looking also, i go to the gym everyday. But i am very socially awkward. My personality is a huge turn off for everyone, day by day as i drag my feet to the halls of my school. I get tired, hoping something just cuts this loneliness in my heart. Nothing makes you feel like honeysuckle, when its a friday night all of the people of my highschool is having fun, and i am here laying on my bed, making a thread on this forum. I just want to kill myself. To end this tormenting soul of mine trap in this cold world. Never i felt this feeling of loneliness, that just blocks the whole world. I think I am going crazy, I am so scared for my life. I want to have so much fun. But yet i cant possibly do it. I have tried to make friends, but i fail all the time. Almost always making a fool of myself. Happiness is a thing I crave so bad. I need it so badly. I need friends, that care for me. I need a family that understands me. I need parents that will take time and talk to me about life's problems. I need siblings that hangout with me and laugh with me. I need relatives, that remember me, that i am still alive. I need people around me. I need something. I need a guide. I need god's love. I need care. I need someone to light up the passion in my heart. I need unconditional love that binds me. I need happiness..