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SophiaGrace
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and I really dont know what to think about it.
She used to be really affectionate. and then she got hung up with the whole Christianity and homosexuality do not go together. So we had an argument, she relapsed, but ultimately decided to come back online. She was affectionate afterwards...but I felt myself having to push the affection along.
And lately, I feel like all my attempts at affection are being shoved away. I kiss her, she doesnt kiss me back. (this is online via IM format btw)
This has gotten worse after she got back from a trip to New Orleans.
I feel affection-starved. She refers to me as her "best friend" to everyone else and last night said something along the lines of " we are friends..." in a passing comment. She complained about the fact that there was no good theological debates, which made me feel as though her first priority was not to spend time with me, but rather debate with other people.
The only reason why i go on Second Life anymore is to spend time with her, so I felt a little dumb when she said this.
It's also usually me that drives our conversations.
I've noted before that when she doesnt want to associate with people she just responds to them with silence to bring a message across. So I'm feeling like she is doing this to me. Stone-walling me to try to tell me " I've chosen my religion, back off"
And I will back off. I mean her sobriety and her religion are inextricably linked and I wouldnt want to hurt her by challenging her religion. So...I'll back off.
It just hurts, you know? I told her I'd love her forever (and...I will).
A few weeks ago All I could think was "I cant imagine you not being in my life." and now its like...i should banish that thought.
What's going on here guys? Is my head playing tricks on me? Am I thinking about it too hard?
???
She used to be really affectionate. and then she got hung up with the whole Christianity and homosexuality do not go together. So we had an argument, she relapsed, but ultimately decided to come back online. She was affectionate afterwards...but I felt myself having to push the affection along.
And lately, I feel like all my attempts at affection are being shoved away. I kiss her, she doesnt kiss me back. (this is online via IM format btw)
This has gotten worse after she got back from a trip to New Orleans.
I feel affection-starved. She refers to me as her "best friend" to everyone else and last night said something along the lines of " we are friends..." in a passing comment. She complained about the fact that there was no good theological debates, which made me feel as though her first priority was not to spend time with me, but rather debate with other people.
The only reason why i go on Second Life anymore is to spend time with her, so I felt a little dumb when she said this.
It's also usually me that drives our conversations.
I've noted before that when she doesnt want to associate with people she just responds to them with silence to bring a message across. So I'm feeling like she is doing this to me. Stone-walling me to try to tell me " I've chosen my religion, back off"
And I will back off. I mean her sobriety and her religion are inextricably linked and I wouldnt want to hurt her by challenging her religion. So...I'll back off.
It just hurts, you know? I told her I'd love her forever (and...I will).
A few weeks ago All I could think was "I cant imagine you not being in my life." and now its like...i should banish that thought.
What's going on here guys? Is my head playing tricks on me? Am I thinking about it too hard?
???