Update.
I was talking today with a friend of mine about therapy. She was encouraging me to go again and in the process of discussing my aversion to it I stumbled on some emotions.
When I was 12 I was having a particularly bad year in my life. I was a victim of bullying my entire childhood and it was at its worst that year, my parents were getting divorced and they were leaving it up to me to decide which parent I wanted to live with after the divorce, my brother, the person I looked up to most in life, dropped out of college and became an alcoholic and I was failing 5 subjects in school. I was consistently visibly depressed. Whenever certain topics would come up I would be on the verge of or in tears.
One day my father, my brother and I were playing scrabble. I lost. It was a close game and I played very well in retrospect. But as soon as we tallied the numbers and I saw that I'd lost I immediately broke down sobbing. Looking back I couldn't tell you why specifically this upset me so much. But the point is I was extremely unstable and would collapse at the drop of a hat. So, faced with me in this state, my father said "That's it, you're going to therapy," and he walked out of the room.
I ended up going to 4 sessions. It was a complete waste of time. What the therapist ended up telling my parents about what he thought was wrong with me was so off base it's laughable looking back at it. But more importantly, I never wanted to go in the first place. I didn't want to go to the sessions, I didn't want to be in the room alone with that woman. I didn't want to talk to her, I didn't want to answer her questions, I wanted no part of this. But I was forced to go anyway. It was the single most embarrassing experience of my life and after every session I felt incredibly violated.
So now I have these terrible emotions associated to therapy and an outright fear of it in general. I know logically this new scenario would be completely different. It would be my choice, there's nothing to actually fear and I don't have to answer any questions or say anything I don't want to. But none of this has any effect on what I feel about therapy.
How do I get over a fear of therapy?