vixie
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My heart is pounding so hard even just writing this. Really scared, but I'll try...
I've struggled with gender dysphoria for as long as I can remember. Biologically, I am male... but that never felt right to me.
Up until recently I tried to ignore the issue or explain it away... "I just don't fit into gender roles" and that sort of thing.. always too scared to consider any of this seriously, because doing so prompts me to do something about it, and doing something about it opens me up to ridicule and losing what few friends I have..
But the fact of the matter is that not addressing it won't make it go away and I'm not happy how I am. So I'm starting to work on that..
But I'm terrified about what this will mean for my loneliness. My boyfriend, being the wonderful person he is, is VERY accepting and supportive about it. But I fear that I won't ever find another like him if things in general don't work out between us. And I'm afraid of being even worse off far as making friends in general go.. being seen as a 'freak'..
I'm pretty much 100% expecting what few people in my life I have as acquaintances will disappear if they learn what I'm going through. Not sure how I'm going to cope with this huge extra hurdle..
I've struggled with gender dysphoria for as long as I can remember. Biologically, I am male... but that never felt right to me.
Up until recently I tried to ignore the issue or explain it away... "I just don't fit into gender roles" and that sort of thing.. always too scared to consider any of this seriously, because doing so prompts me to do something about it, and doing something about it opens me up to ridicule and losing what few friends I have..
But the fact of the matter is that not addressing it won't make it go away and I'm not happy how I am. So I'm starting to work on that..
But I'm terrified about what this will mean for my loneliness. My boyfriend, being the wonderful person he is, is VERY accepting and supportive about it. But I fear that I won't ever find another like him if things in general don't work out between us. And I'm afraid of being even worse off far as making friends in general go.. being seen as a 'freak'..
I'm pretty much 100% expecting what few people in my life I have as acquaintances will disappear if they learn what I'm going through. Not sure how I'm going to cope with this huge extra hurdle..