LeaningIntoTheMuse
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LeaningIntoTheMuse said:I guess people here are incapable of understanding depression.
All I want to do is sleep. I drink coffee because it keeps me awake. Otherwise, I go back to bed, even if I get 14 hours of sleep.
LeaningIntoTheMuse said:I suffer from depression every day. I slept until 4pm today, and felt like going back to sleep...the only thing that stopped me was drinking 3 cups of coffee, and it improved my mood. Before that, I felt like crying.
I know it's bad for my heart to drink so much caffeine, but it seems to be the only thing that makes me not curl up in a fetal position.
VanillaCreme said:Well, from what I could get from what 9006 quoted, you assume people just don't understand again? Especially here... I'd give more credit to the people here if I were you. You don't know half of their stories. Some you could probably really relate to, and some would even make you feel better knowing that others go through the same, and also that others make it through.
VanillaCreme said:Well, from what I could get from what 9006 quoted, you assume people just don't understand again? Especially here... I'd give more credit to the people here if I were you. You don't know half of their stories. Some you could probably really relate to, and some would even make you feel better knowing that others go through the same, and also that others make it through. It should be a theme here, but what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger, and I think the strength of the people on this forum can testify to that. Whether they realize it or not, they are braver than they want to believe in.
Runciter said:I've got to agree with this, it stinks of narcissism to think that no one can understand what you're going through. What makes you so special?
I sent you a PM of support explaining some of the things we had in common when I first joined here and you never acknowledged it or bothered to reply. Yet you continue treat me, and others, as if I couldn't possibly understand what you're going through. This thread looks like one big cry for help to me but you're completely unwilling to except help.
ladyforsaken said:Muse, I can't remember this, but do you talk to anyone about your depression issues?
VanillaCreme said:However, at least she won't be around for now. From what I've read you say about her previously, she's difficult to live with, especially with how she refuses to discipline her children. At least they're not your every day problem anymore. That's a weight off your shoulders.
LeaningIntoTheMuse said:Thank you, Vanilla. I'm relieved that someone understands.
I am so hurt by everything that has gone on in the past two weeks. It actually felt good at first, because my mom has described it as "combat survivors"...that's actually what it feels like. It feels like I fought a war. And at the same time, I still left up the things that the kids made for me on the wall and fridge, because if I took that down, and accepted that they never really loved me, that is basically me throwing away 13 years of my life (starting with the oldest) that I've spent caring for those children, and that just hurts.
My mom is diabetic and has some health issues, that's what makes me even madder. That a 33 year old, perfectly healthy, woman, would take advantage of her own elderly mother. I've gotten in her face about it before, and it's like talking to a brick wall. She would rather walk out, than face what should have been done all the time...she had a job, she could have paid rent, she didn't have to drain a dollar here and there with fast food, DVDs, and all the crap (including cigarettes, and my mom wanted her to quit smoking), that she did.
It's been okay that I'm living here, because it was only temporary (I moved back home in 2011, before then I was living on my own for 4 years), and I wasn't taking advantage of the situation. The most I demanded was Netflix, which my mom loves, too, so it's okay. And I was going to college, because I want to be somebody. When my sister was asked to go to college, she would make excuses, even though she has an interest in graphic design...and it pays well. But she would rather make minimum wage.
I'm revealing too much. If I revealed everything that went on here, including what her mentally ill 8 year old did to us, you would be appalled. I'm glad that they're gone, but I'm not glad that, yet again, I've been hurt by my own family.
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