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troubled
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I almost cannot cope with this lonliness any more, and feeling lost and forgotten whilst everyone else moves on. On days like this I just don't know what to do with myself. My heart sinks when I see what others are doing.
I've got to force myself into finding some kind of job to escape the rut of benefits, and i've got to force myself to try and get back into university, to do something with my life. I just want to cry, it is so so hard being in isolation for years on end. I don't care if i sound like a pussy; the lonliness is crushing.
I'm 22 and I don't know who I am any more. I do a good job of hiding this from my parents but they only see that i'm quiet and subdued. In reality I am almost too numb to commit suicide, i'm trapped in apathy and numbness. I don't know what is holding me back from taking an overdose. I wish anyone was here so i could know that someone cares. I am totally alone in the world.
I've got to force myself into finding some kind of job to escape the rut of benefits, and i've got to force myself to try and get back into university, to do something with my life. I just want to cry, it is so so hard being in isolation for years on end. I don't care if i sound like a pussy; the lonliness is crushing.
I'm 22 and I don't know who I am any more. I do a good job of hiding this from my parents but they only see that i'm quiet and subdued. In reality I am almost too numb to commit suicide, i'm trapped in apathy and numbness. I don't know what is holding me back from taking an overdose. I wish anyone was here so i could know that someone cares. I am totally alone in the world.