I don't have a job, I have like one offline friend, never had a offline gf, and dropped out of high school when I was 16. I'm so ******* weak that I let this depression consume me. I let it consume to the point where I was to weak to want to go to school anymore. What the fresia am I suppose to do with my life? The unemployment rate here is like 11% and nobody wants to hire me. I try to make myself look great but when you have an ugly face with crooked teeth, who would want to hire me? I mean you have to make your company look the best it can be with people who actually look good.
Nobody wants to be friends with a total ******* loser. I'm surprised my best friend even wants to be friends with me. It makes no sense, because I am not an interesting person by the least. Everyone else I meet treats me like I'm a loser. They can just sense the vibe of failure or stupid virgin. Even people I have met online, have toyed with my emotions and made me feel like honeysuckle. They act like they want to be my friend, then turn a 180 and start ******* with me, making me feel like a loser.
I'm just a stupid waste of space in this world. I don't even know why I'm allowed to eat or live in such a wonderful country. When other people in this world deserve it so much more. This world is so unfair and sometimes, I just don't want to be part of it anymore. I have been trying to get a job but like I said no one wants to hire me or anything. I have the urge to just stab myself in the gut sometimes just to make it all go away. If I end up a 30+ year old virgin with nothing or nobody to live for, I sure as hell will make it all end. I want to try my hardest to change the situation now but I keep hitting these road blocks that make it so difficult. I'm to weak for this life.
Nobody wants to be friends with a total ******* loser. I'm surprised my best friend even wants to be friends with me. It makes no sense, because I am not an interesting person by the least. Everyone else I meet treats me like I'm a loser. They can just sense the vibe of failure or stupid virgin. Even people I have met online, have toyed with my emotions and made me feel like honeysuckle. They act like they want to be my friend, then turn a 180 and start ******* with me, making me feel like a loser.
I'm just a stupid waste of space in this world. I don't even know why I'm allowed to eat or live in such a wonderful country. When other people in this world deserve it so much more. This world is so unfair and sometimes, I just don't want to be part of it anymore. I have been trying to get a job but like I said no one wants to hire me or anything. I have the urge to just stab myself in the gut sometimes just to make it all go away. If I end up a 30+ year old virgin with nothing or nobody to live for, I sure as hell will make it all end. I want to try my hardest to change the situation now but I keep hitting these road blocks that make it so difficult. I'm to weak for this life.