Chilly man
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I'm so tired of living. I don't see the point in going on. I've tried suicide three times, almost succeeded once. People say "You're young, hang in there, things will get better." But they don't. I have no friends. I went to Moviecodec when I Googled "I am lonely" and tried to make friends but failed. Apparently I'm just a jerk. I tried to act just like the people there but everything they did was accepted but when I did the same things I was rejected and even hated. I tried to be funny but they took everything I said and turned it around to make it seem I was flaming them. They started ignoring me because my posts were too long (like this one) but I don't know how to say something in only six words. They called me a drama queen when I tried to explain myself or when I got upset at people calling me hateful names and ridiculi9ng me personally because I told some things from my past to people that used it for fodder to the haters. I thought I'd try to get a new start here, but I'm thinking "Why?" It would be so much easier to just end things. I've even thought of killing my parents and then myself so they don't have to suffer the loss of their child after my suicide. Death would bring such peace. Why not bring death to our family?