Zorensus311
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I keep getting rejected. I work out in the gym to look good. I groom myself good but I'm still lonely. I'm 25 years old, never been kissed and never been loved by another girl. It's kinda my fault. I'm Asian (pacific islander) and I'm not into Asian girls. I always go for white chicks (my preference. This fall I am planning to go to South Korea to get my nose and chin augmentation to look like half Caucasians like Danniel Henney. I'm going to spend about $7k-$10k and it's a risk. My parents support this because they know my pain.
Even when I show confidence, they are not interested. Couple days ago I signed in online dating websites and it cost me almost $200. So far, I got nothing. I think I'm doom forever. I'm becoming too emotional because of loneliness. I cry every night and sometimes I cry in daytime.
My sister has a boyfriend, and their are buying a house. I am so happy for them, and I believe she will start a family pretty soon. I hope she will have a beautiful family and marriage.
I admit, I'm a shallow person and I'm not good looking. However, I have a nice body. My depression is my distraction. I cry a lot. I have failed a lot of accounting classes. Some of them I have taken like 5 times.
Again as I stated above, my surgery is coming this fall. I know, I will suffer both physically and emotionally. I just hope it will change my life into a better one.
I play video games with sad honorable death scenes. Every night, I ask God, "If my life is going to be a failure and lonely, please give me an honorable fight that would lead me to honorable death". I should have joined the armed forces.
I have created sad quotes
"If I'm ugly in life, please let me become beautiful when I die"
"Love is a freewill, it's God's gift, I love her but she doesn't love me. I am just not gifted, maybe this is my punishment for all of my sins".
Even when I show confidence, they are not interested. Couple days ago I signed in online dating websites and it cost me almost $200. So far, I got nothing. I think I'm doom forever. I'm becoming too emotional because of loneliness. I cry every night and sometimes I cry in daytime.
My sister has a boyfriend, and their are buying a house. I am so happy for them, and I believe she will start a family pretty soon. I hope she will have a beautiful family and marriage.
I admit, I'm a shallow person and I'm not good looking. However, I have a nice body. My depression is my distraction. I cry a lot. I have failed a lot of accounting classes. Some of them I have taken like 5 times.
Again as I stated above, my surgery is coming this fall. I know, I will suffer both physically and emotionally. I just hope it will change my life into a better one.
I play video games with sad honorable death scenes. Every night, I ask God, "If my life is going to be a failure and lonely, please give me an honorable fight that would lead me to honorable death". I should have joined the armed forces.
I have created sad quotes
"If I'm ugly in life, please let me become beautiful when I die"
"Love is a freewill, it's God's gift, I love her but she doesn't love me. I am just not gifted, maybe this is my punishment for all of my sins".