MiyuZen
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I met this man 4 years ago, we met through a mutual interest and got on like a house on fire, we spent more and more time together and I felt he understood me like no one else I had ever met, he was everything I could ever want from a man. When he was away I felt a void in my life and missed him so much I slowly realized I had fallen in love with him.
I decided to tell him because I felt we could talk about anything and he said he was 'sorry he is not into relationships'. 4 years have passed, he hasn't dated anyone else and he gets a lot of female attention. We have become closer friends and I care about him so much, he tells me he cares about me a lot too but isn't good at showing it and that he is sorry he is the way he is and can't change. I have bought him a lot of gifts and done a lot of special things for him which he has really appreciated but he is an introvert he sometimes doesn't like to go out and he is really bad at keeping in touch, even with his other good friends. He is emotionally unavailable, but I can't stop caring about him.
My feelings for him won't go away, I try not to think about him like that but I still have this sick feeling in my heart. I'm scared he will forget about me, or meet someone he will one day want to be with. I'm scared for getting more hurt, and most of all of loosing my best friend. I feel rejected every time he doesn't reply to my messages or doesn't tell me about something important in my life, so much so I'm beginning to hate myself thinking I'm not good enough for him. Logically I know he doesn't want to be with someone, but in my heart we are so good together so I just dont understand why he won't give me a chance.
I really want to get over these feelings and see him as a friend but I don't know how to do it, has anyone else been in a similar situation?
I decided to tell him because I felt we could talk about anything and he said he was 'sorry he is not into relationships'. 4 years have passed, he hasn't dated anyone else and he gets a lot of female attention. We have become closer friends and I care about him so much, he tells me he cares about me a lot too but isn't good at showing it and that he is sorry he is the way he is and can't change. I have bought him a lot of gifts and done a lot of special things for him which he has really appreciated but he is an introvert he sometimes doesn't like to go out and he is really bad at keeping in touch, even with his other good friends. He is emotionally unavailable, but I can't stop caring about him.
My feelings for him won't go away, I try not to think about him like that but I still have this sick feeling in my heart. I'm scared he will forget about me, or meet someone he will one day want to be with. I'm scared for getting more hurt, and most of all of loosing my best friend. I feel rejected every time he doesn't reply to my messages or doesn't tell me about something important in my life, so much so I'm beginning to hate myself thinking I'm not good enough for him. Logically I know he doesn't want to be with someone, but in my heart we are so good together so I just dont understand why he won't give me a chance.
I really want to get over these feelings and see him as a friend but I don't know how to do it, has anyone else been in a similar situation?