I have had a problem with social anxiety for the last 12 years of my life. It started when my 10 year elder brother became schizophrenic, causing a great deal of stress for myself and my family which in turn caused me to become anxious around other people.
Anyway, I'm 24 now, so I've dealt with social anxiety for the latter half of my life. I have made a lot of progress in this last half a year though and feel as though I am fairly confident, and not very anxious around people and in social situations. I still live with my parents because I can't yet afford to move out.
There is still one major thing that causes me a great deal of anxiety though: I am constantly worrying when I do things that my parents are going to judge me negatively. I have this worry constantly when I do anything new, especially if there is a social aspect to it. The thing is... they never have judged me... and yet I still fear it.
My anxiety in this regard goes back to the early days of my social anxiety when my brother was ill. His schizophrenia was caused by recreational drug use. He was a very social person (and still is now he's better.) I was repeatedly told that I shouldn't make the same mistakes he had made. Somehow in my head I think I have this idea that my parents are watching and judging me constantly.
I find that when I want to do something, particularly social, I feel anxious that my parents will question me about it... sometimes I fight through the anxiety and do it anyway, and sometimes I give in to the anxiety and forget about it. Like I said though, my parents have never, ever judged me or tried to control me, or anything like that.
Actually, my parents say that I need to get out more, and that I need to meet new people, and that I need to get a girlfriend, and that I need to make some friends, and that I need some social hobbies, and so on and so on. And yet... I still have this constant nagging anxiety about every little decision I make: I want to start a class but what will my parents think; I want to take this job but what will my parents think; I want to join this club but what will my parents think; I want to go to this gig but what will my parents think; I want to do almost anything but what will my parents think... you get the picture.
I have this idea that when I can afford to move out, then the problem will cease to exist because I wont be living with them. They wont be there constantly to hypothetically judge me. I'm not sure how realistic that actually is though; I don't know for sure that it will fix the problem my mind has created.
I have made progress in other areas of my anxiety by taking a gradual approach to exposure and changing the way I think. I guess the same formula will work, but I'm not really sure how to start? I'm struggling to find a starting point where the anxiety level is low enough that I can make constant progress. Any suggestions are welcome, as is any advice.
I don't know if anyone can relate to this; I know it's a pretty specific problem, but if you can it would be nice to hear.
Anyway, I'm 24 now, so I've dealt with social anxiety for the latter half of my life. I have made a lot of progress in this last half a year though and feel as though I am fairly confident, and not very anxious around people and in social situations. I still live with my parents because I can't yet afford to move out.
There is still one major thing that causes me a great deal of anxiety though: I am constantly worrying when I do things that my parents are going to judge me negatively. I have this worry constantly when I do anything new, especially if there is a social aspect to it. The thing is... they never have judged me... and yet I still fear it.
My anxiety in this regard goes back to the early days of my social anxiety when my brother was ill. His schizophrenia was caused by recreational drug use. He was a very social person (and still is now he's better.) I was repeatedly told that I shouldn't make the same mistakes he had made. Somehow in my head I think I have this idea that my parents are watching and judging me constantly.
I find that when I want to do something, particularly social, I feel anxious that my parents will question me about it... sometimes I fight through the anxiety and do it anyway, and sometimes I give in to the anxiety and forget about it. Like I said though, my parents have never, ever judged me or tried to control me, or anything like that.
Actually, my parents say that I need to get out more, and that I need to meet new people, and that I need to get a girlfriend, and that I need to make some friends, and that I need some social hobbies, and so on and so on. And yet... I still have this constant nagging anxiety about every little decision I make: I want to start a class but what will my parents think; I want to take this job but what will my parents think; I want to join this club but what will my parents think; I want to go to this gig but what will my parents think; I want to do almost anything but what will my parents think... you get the picture.
I have this idea that when I can afford to move out, then the problem will cease to exist because I wont be living with them. They wont be there constantly to hypothetically judge me. I'm not sure how realistic that actually is though; I don't know for sure that it will fix the problem my mind has created.
I have made progress in other areas of my anxiety by taking a gradual approach to exposure and changing the way I think. I guess the same formula will work, but I'm not really sure how to start? I'm struggling to find a starting point where the anxiety level is low enough that I can make constant progress. Any suggestions are welcome, as is any advice.
I don't know if anyone can relate to this; I know it's a pretty specific problem, but if you can it would be nice to hear.