I have read some of the stories here, and figured that since I am having a difficult time adjusting after a failed relationship I figured I should write my story as well. I am doing this not to ask for advice nor sympathy, rather I want to read from you also about your stories if you have one. Maybe from your stories I can find peace and answers.
I am 32, male, currently working as an overseas worker in one middle east country. Before I left, I fathered two sons my second born unfortunately I was not able to carry in my arms before I left my country since he was still in her mother womb.
When I left, everything was intact, no worries other than money which was the primary reason why I left for work to earn twice the pay.
Anyhow, even though I have been regularly been remitting money without let-up, my woman decided it was time to go against me for reasons I can only surmise as she loved me for convenience. So since she has been doing this to me so many times but I was just too blindly in love with her to see, everything changed. Overnight my once inspired spirit was torn apart and I lost everything. My reason for going here became senseless.
it is very hard to work given what has happened, I dare not speak to a friend since doing so sympathetic people might cower to me something I literally dislike no matter how depressed I am. Whenever I am at the office though my body is there and work in front of my desk, my mind was somewhere else.
My sons, I miss them so much as to why these things happened they will never understand. I went here for them, but my love will leave them for someone else.
I can only do so much here being so far away from home, my financial capability to get home is nil which could rectify and or fix whatever it is that needs to solve this. I feel pathetic, I am an architect, I can design buildings, supervise its erection, plan etc. Yet the simplest thing to figure out how I cant. Had there been opportunity for me 11 months ago none of this would have happened. But I can not blame myself nor ask God why, I just have to move on despite this set-back with the hope of one day when I get back home to rebuild the home brought down by my woman's selfish wish to make the lives of someone else comfortable and disregarding mine and our sons.
You know its very ironic. Even though she makes fool of me, I still love her and want her back.
I am 32, male, currently working as an overseas worker in one middle east country. Before I left, I fathered two sons my second born unfortunately I was not able to carry in my arms before I left my country since he was still in her mother womb.
When I left, everything was intact, no worries other than money which was the primary reason why I left for work to earn twice the pay.
Anyhow, even though I have been regularly been remitting money without let-up, my woman decided it was time to go against me for reasons I can only surmise as she loved me for convenience. So since she has been doing this to me so many times but I was just too blindly in love with her to see, everything changed. Overnight my once inspired spirit was torn apart and I lost everything. My reason for going here became senseless.
it is very hard to work given what has happened, I dare not speak to a friend since doing so sympathetic people might cower to me something I literally dislike no matter how depressed I am. Whenever I am at the office though my body is there and work in front of my desk, my mind was somewhere else.
My sons, I miss them so much as to why these things happened they will never understand. I went here for them, but my love will leave them for someone else.
I can only do so much here being so far away from home, my financial capability to get home is nil which could rectify and or fix whatever it is that needs to solve this. I feel pathetic, I am an architect, I can design buildings, supervise its erection, plan etc. Yet the simplest thing to figure out how I cant. Had there been opportunity for me 11 months ago none of this would have happened. But I can not blame myself nor ask God why, I just have to move on despite this set-back with the hope of one day when I get back home to rebuild the home brought down by my woman's selfish wish to make the lives of someone else comfortable and disregarding mine and our sons.
You know its very ironic. Even though she makes fool of me, I still love her and want her back.
