imheresadly
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I can not find anyone. I am not some perfect person, or some guy that is a millionaire or anything, (yes I am a bigger person, which includes being overweight but I do have muscle... hidden....) but I just do not seem to have any luck with women. I am 19 (graduated from highschool last year), have a job, will be going to college and have never had a girlfriend. The girls I did go to school with were nice but out of my reach even on my best and their worst day. Even so I figured be nice, smile, try to joke around, but in the end I failed.
Even so I do not want just a physical atraction to some woman (though it never hurts) I want to be on an emotional level with her that nobody else can be. Just someone to hold or talk to. Someone to spend time with to spend money on (I save my money so I have some for the moment), just someone to be with. I have tried very, very hard not to crack but it gets harder with each passing day.
Where I work you have to be able to talk to people openly enough to make them feel better about their day. This has helped my talking skills but even so I feel as if nothing I do will ever be good enough for someone to notice besides my family. I do not really have close friends since they went to college and I had to wait to go since I am not able to pay for it like them.
/ramble mode off
But to the subject, I can bottle my feelings up as much as I want but in the end my bottle it almost full. I have no idea how much longer I can bear looking around with to true friends and noone by my side. Even if it were for only a day, having someone would utterly make me more happy then I can be in this state. If you have some advice please share. I will not become some arrogant prick in order to get women. I can not bring myself to degrade women. I am to nice of a person to do this. I want an equal by my side but yet, I fear I may crumble before it happens.
Even so I do not want just a physical atraction to some woman (though it never hurts) I want to be on an emotional level with her that nobody else can be. Just someone to hold or talk to. Someone to spend time with to spend money on (I save my money so I have some for the moment), just someone to be with. I have tried very, very hard not to crack but it gets harder with each passing day.
Where I work you have to be able to talk to people openly enough to make them feel better about their day. This has helped my talking skills but even so I feel as if nothing I do will ever be good enough for someone to notice besides my family. I do not really have close friends since they went to college and I had to wait to go since I am not able to pay for it like them.
/ramble mode off
But to the subject, I can bottle my feelings up as much as I want but in the end my bottle it almost full. I have no idea how much longer I can bear looking around with to true friends and noone by my side. Even if it were for only a day, having someone would utterly make me more happy then I can be in this state. If you have some advice please share. I will not become some arrogant prick in order to get women. I can not bring myself to degrade women. I am to nice of a person to do this. I want an equal by my side but yet, I fear I may crumble before it happens.