do people take advantage of you becaues you're lonely? i live alone and it seems EVERYONE seems to get off on the fact that i live alone and act as if its a handicap or something. yes im lonely...i have no friends and a cruel abusive family that has destroyed me-- i yearn to have people come over, have fun but it's odd how people purpoesly WONT give that to me-- they wont come hang out have fun. they come over to abuse berate or use me. i cant handle this life. the ironic thing is...im BEAUTIFUL and kind and nice and sweet and down to earth...thats a horrible combination these days as EVERYONE tries to use me for some reason. no one will just come over and hang out with me though i live in a nice house..and it's pretty. yes i have several cats but people just punish me for living alone. one guy wouldnt even come inside i think because he KNEW it would be a positive thing for me and he just stayed outside...it's creepy how people react to my place. some people just insult me or my place too including my evil parents. my dad owns the place and i pay him rent but my parents use it to control and abuse me. every minute of my life im alone...men hate me b/c im pretty and basically just abuse or reject me...i cant get a boyfrend it's crazy. im also highly intelligent and super cool VERY down to earth..its odd on this planet how men HATE gorgeous kind down to earth women...it should be a fantasy for men but instead they'd PREFER to be with a hideously fat rude female with no personality rather than a hot and nice girl.... men just flat out reject me and act hostile towards me while running off to a grotesquely obese ugly weird female.
if i try to get people to come over they won't. so i have to ask my worst enemies and abusers to come over and then they use it to abuse me more b/c i am so desperate to have a body in my house. i live totally alone and i NEED someone in the house once a week or my house gets really nasty energy. how do people handle this??? i dont have social anxiety i LOVE socializing bu where i live people are just SO rude and stuck up theres nothing i can do and everyone hates me b/c im pretty. it doesnt matter that im SO nice and sweet...people HATE me b/c im just pretty and cute-- it makes no **** sense. i cant change my life...ive livedin orlando for 15 years and suffered this way however in another city it would be different. i want to move but i get reduced rent here and im not sure what to do. my family is controlling and cruel and has destroyed my life as have many and i have NO support to turn to....i think i am the loneliest person in the world.... the only people i hang out with are psychos from the internet who hang out with me once then ditch me or are trying to get 'something' then bail on me.
i find it so weird how im smart cool funny awesome person....but cant manage to make ONE friend in the world...also where i live orlando the people are so rude and mean..and tahts part of the problem...this awful sick city....i dont know what to do anymore....i cant survive...i should be going on vacations with a boyfriend, having a sex life...i cant meet a guy?!! im a virgin in my 30's and people make fun of me but i look like elizabeth taylor and am drop dead gorgeous but all people do is make fun of me b/c im beautiful....my life is a bad nightmare....i cant even do things alone b/c everyone stares at me like a freak b/c im 'beautiful and alone' and literally even random strangers pick on me. i was at a theme park yesterday with my worst enemy my mother...she is so evil adn i cant get into the horror story but i went alone on one ride and EVERYONE was reacting to me being alone....staring at me trying to bump into me just fuk with me...if im with someone usually theyre staring down the person im with...like "who is that theyre with." but since i was alone i was screwed...everyones like ohh shes alone let's PICK ON HER...freaking idiots.... i cant survive this life anymore....im so beautiful..how come men just REJECT me??? im super nice...why dont men try to date me??? EVERYONE just tries to USE ME and i cant make female friends women are hideously jealous of me...im not jealous of anyone and love everyone.....what the hell am i supposed to do??? this was tragic and cruel in my 20's but i had hope but now im in my 30's and it's STILL GOING ON????
if i try to get people to come over they won't. so i have to ask my worst enemies and abusers to come over and then they use it to abuse me more b/c i am so desperate to have a body in my house. i live totally alone and i NEED someone in the house once a week or my house gets really nasty energy. how do people handle this??? i dont have social anxiety i LOVE socializing bu where i live people are just SO rude and stuck up theres nothing i can do and everyone hates me b/c im pretty. it doesnt matter that im SO nice and sweet...people HATE me b/c im just pretty and cute-- it makes no **** sense. i cant change my life...ive livedin orlando for 15 years and suffered this way however in another city it would be different. i want to move but i get reduced rent here and im not sure what to do. my family is controlling and cruel and has destroyed my life as have many and i have NO support to turn to....i think i am the loneliest person in the world.... the only people i hang out with are psychos from the internet who hang out with me once then ditch me or are trying to get 'something' then bail on me.
i find it so weird how im smart cool funny awesome person....but cant manage to make ONE friend in the world...also where i live orlando the people are so rude and mean..and tahts part of the problem...this awful sick city....i dont know what to do anymore....i cant survive...i should be going on vacations with a boyfriend, having a sex life...i cant meet a guy?!! im a virgin in my 30's and people make fun of me but i look like elizabeth taylor and am drop dead gorgeous but all people do is make fun of me b/c im beautiful....my life is a bad nightmare....i cant even do things alone b/c everyone stares at me like a freak b/c im 'beautiful and alone' and literally even random strangers pick on me. i was at a theme park yesterday with my worst enemy my mother...she is so evil adn i cant get into the horror story but i went alone on one ride and EVERYONE was reacting to me being alone....staring at me trying to bump into me just fuk with me...if im with someone usually theyre staring down the person im with...like "who is that theyre with." but since i was alone i was screwed...everyones like ohh shes alone let's PICK ON HER...freaking idiots.... i cant survive this life anymore....im so beautiful..how come men just REJECT me??? im super nice...why dont men try to date me??? EVERYONE just tries to USE ME and i cant make female friends women are hideously jealous of me...im not jealous of anyone and love everyone.....what the hell am i supposed to do??? this was tragic and cruel in my 20's but i had hope but now im in my 30's and it's STILL GOING ON????