ZynischeWirklichkeit
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Hi everyone! I call myself ZynischeWirklichkeit (German for CynicalReality). My name sounds masculine, but I am a lady. You can all call me Zyn.
I am a loner. Most of my time is spent alone in my bedroom. I have schizoaffective disorder (both bipolar disorder and schizophrenia disorder together). I also have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. My schizoaffective disorder causes me to isolate. I love being alone, usually, but occasionally, I long to talk to someone. I also am very afraid of driving, so I am limited as to where I can drive. I have problems trusting people. I question if I even have any real friends at this point. The "friends" I have, I rarely see. And when I see them, some of them take advantage of me. Some friends ask me to hang out with them, drive an hour away just to see them for only an hour. I have a lot of anxiety when hanging out with friends. So, it is very rare that I see my friends. I am also afraid of going into crowds. They cause me to have panic attacks.
Being alone is much more peaceful for me
Anyways, it is nice to meet you all!
I am a loner. Most of my time is spent alone in my bedroom. I have schizoaffective disorder (both bipolar disorder and schizophrenia disorder together). I also have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. My schizoaffective disorder causes me to isolate. I love being alone, usually, but occasionally, I long to talk to someone. I also am very afraid of driving, so I am limited as to where I can drive. I have problems trusting people. I question if I even have any real friends at this point. The "friends" I have, I rarely see. And when I see them, some of them take advantage of me. Some friends ask me to hang out with them, drive an hour away just to see them for only an hour. I have a lot of anxiety when hanging out with friends. So, it is very rare that I see my friends. I am also afraid of going into crowds. They cause me to have panic attacks.
Being alone is much more peaceful for me
Anyways, it is nice to meet you all!