Fvantom
Well-known member
Thats honestly the only way I can describe the way I always feel, its sort of like this, I went through my entire teen years without a single real friend, not only that but I didnt even have anyone to talk to or hang out with, period. Already, Ive missed out on the best years of my life and I hate to say that now, at 21, its not much different, I have people who call me their friend but they ignore me regularly, always going out without me, I cant call them friends.
Ive been feeling especially bad recently, to the point where I lose my emotions and go numb, I cant feel anything except for the pain and emptiness that comes with what Ive been through, but anything that should invoke positive emotions, happy music, seeing people around you who are happy, etc. fills me with pain. Its as if Im losing my heart, I keep fighting for it, but every time Im expected to be happy for someone who actually has caring friends, or be subjected to watch all these people being happy from the outside, it fills me with unbearable pain, although I try, theres times where strength shines through but it hurts.
Ive been feeling especially bad recently, to the point where I lose my emotions and go numb, I cant feel anything except for the pain and emptiness that comes with what Ive been through, but anything that should invoke positive emotions, happy music, seeing people around you who are happy, etc. fills me with pain. Its as if Im losing my heart, I keep fighting for it, but every time Im expected to be happy for someone who actually has caring friends, or be subjected to watch all these people being happy from the outside, it fills me with unbearable pain, although I try, theres times where strength shines through but it hurts.