apathy
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Hi there, i've been having a bit of trouble with a particular problem that keeps recurring. There hasn't been much to do and it's the holidays. I've finally gotten most of the school year's work done and finally finally finaaally i can do what i want to do - make art. The problem is, i feel incompetent because i haven't been focusing on my art at all. Kinda repressed and suppressed my desires, but now i want to let it all out.... I've even seriously thought and decided that i want to do art after high school. I know that i can do anything if i put my mind to it as i've demonstrated it from working through all the honeysuckle in school.
I take art class in school but we really do not learn anything from the teacher. She gives an assignment theme and we make art. I've come to realized that all my art-making comes from sudden, impromptu ideas or built-up emotions. I've never actually sat down and did art for the sake of improving the technical aspects. Now that i have all this time and resolve, i sit my ass down wanting to create.... but **** it, i'm not inspired. Where is my muse... i think to myself. Frustration.. frustration.
The problem is, i don't want to make art without my muse because the finished work would be empty in my eyes, and i'd hate it. Yet another part of me knows that if i don't start improving, i'd be way behind others if i do get into art school. Sure, my teacher has commended me in my art work etc but i need to feel it for myself, to be able to confidently say to myself and others that i'm proud of my skills. But i don't feel that way at the moment.
How can i improve on my skills if my muse doesn't come along... ? It's not an excuse, i really do want to improve on my skills but painting pretentiously is something i can't do.
I take art class in school but we really do not learn anything from the teacher. She gives an assignment theme and we make art. I've come to realized that all my art-making comes from sudden, impromptu ideas or built-up emotions. I've never actually sat down and did art for the sake of improving the technical aspects. Now that i have all this time and resolve, i sit my ass down wanting to create.... but **** it, i'm not inspired. Where is my muse... i think to myself. Frustration.. frustration.
The problem is, i don't want to make art without my muse because the finished work would be empty in my eyes, and i'd hate it. Yet another part of me knows that if i don't start improving, i'd be way behind others if i do get into art school. Sure, my teacher has commended me in my art work etc but i need to feel it for myself, to be able to confidently say to myself and others that i'm proud of my skills. But i don't feel that way at the moment.
How can i improve on my skills if my muse doesn't come along... ? It's not an excuse, i really do want to improve on my skills but painting pretentiously is something i can't do.