I sometimes wish I could have some kind of treatment to free me of my mind. I hate the way I think, the way I feel about myself, loathe the perfectionist nature I have that sees every failure as a catastrophe and the way in which I act around people. I want one of those procedures you see in the old films where you've got those small pads attached to your head with wires that shock you. I'd love to be able to change the way I think and be free of these evil little demons inside my head. I swear I'm going crazy and will one day do something major that will change my life forever, if not someone elses. I'm not an evil or bad person at heart, I just despise my entire mindset so much. Does anyone else feel the same?