Xelha
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I've been lonely for most of my life, but I can't remember a time when I felt lonelier than I do now... and I no longer know how to deal with it.
I graduated from university back in June, and for a few months things were ok. I went on a couple trips, worked for a couple months... and I really enjoyed that. But when I got back from my second trip, around September 12, things started to really change for me.
I started my hunt for a job, one that was meant to last me about a year and enable me to make money to do a master I want to do in September 2011. Things didn't turn out as planned. I had a few interviews, all of which fell through, including one I was particularly excited about, seeing as how it would have really helped me out career-wise.
I've been looking for a job for about 2 1/2 months now, and I've really lowered all my standards. I've applied to a bunch of minimum wage jobs in crappy locations, something that's a real blow to my self-esteem, considering I graduated with a distinction and won all sorts of awards. So I've started losing the little confidence I'd built up, and am becoming a lot more pessimistic about my future.
To make matters worse, there's the whole loneliness issue. I've had to move back in with my parents, which used to be okay, but now I don't have any friends here. The few I've held onto are either not here or are too busy to spend any time with me. My university is 3 hours away from here, so going there to meet people isn't an option. I also live in a pretty small town with no real places to go to meet people. We don't even have a mall... >_>
I know getting a job would really help me out in terms of meeting people, but so far I haven't had any luck with that and I don't know how to deal with the loneliness in the meantime. Right now I meet up with friends maybe once every two weeks, at best.... :/
Any advice?
I graduated from university back in June, and for a few months things were ok. I went on a couple trips, worked for a couple months... and I really enjoyed that. But when I got back from my second trip, around September 12, things started to really change for me.
I started my hunt for a job, one that was meant to last me about a year and enable me to make money to do a master I want to do in September 2011. Things didn't turn out as planned. I had a few interviews, all of which fell through, including one I was particularly excited about, seeing as how it would have really helped me out career-wise.
I've been looking for a job for about 2 1/2 months now, and I've really lowered all my standards. I've applied to a bunch of minimum wage jobs in crappy locations, something that's a real blow to my self-esteem, considering I graduated with a distinction and won all sorts of awards. So I've started losing the little confidence I'd built up, and am becoming a lot more pessimistic about my future.
To make matters worse, there's the whole loneliness issue. I've had to move back in with my parents, which used to be okay, but now I don't have any friends here. The few I've held onto are either not here or are too busy to spend any time with me. My university is 3 hours away from here, so going there to meet people isn't an option. I also live in a pretty small town with no real places to go to meet people. We don't even have a mall... >_>
I know getting a job would really help me out in terms of meeting people, but so far I haven't had any luck with that and I don't know how to deal with the loneliness in the meantime. Right now I meet up with friends maybe once every two weeks, at best.... :/
Any advice?