Renkei
Well-known member
I Wrote this song a day i lost my mind and my heart
a girl that i loved deeply the one i thought it would be
2 years in pain as i watched her as she tore at my heart
Just so she could fit in that place forever
i drank 3 bottles that night
i grabbed my pills
heres the first part of the song and i wrote the second part today after remembering the night since i'm now sober this took place 2 years ago.
and heres what i sang to the suicide operator:
writing down my last notes
writing down my last thoughts
let this bottle tap out until i choke
let these pills bring the fever
let me body burn into nothing
let me get redemption
let this be my last words
let this be my final decision
im obviously not afraid to die
im not a fool
as much as was a fool for her
this is the end of salvation
my last chance
read this and let it mark
this isnt a suicide note
this is reality
right in your ******* face
don't hate a choice that isnt yours
death conceals me in the mind of a traitor
let this be who i am
the very grave that burried me
out to everyone who knows me
let this be a frozen picture in a reality lost
i found something as my moments go by
"
in death
is information saved in the brain
its NOT.
and its a fact
my last dying breath now
let them come
i can hear a sound of sirens
let me choke
i can feel my heart
its broke..
"
spend the daylight
dancing on knives
lets spend the last time
tonight
and we
are so far now
so ******* far from you
so far i swear
and now
thing are running now
and i swear i dont have much time
and we all
go over now
let this mistake blow over
i swear there be another night
and when i cant wait any longer
i swear that i feel so far from home
and now
i cant wait longer
i ******* swear im so far from you
and i know that surely
that this isnt life
to me
i wish i could see you now
tonight
as things start getting closer now
friction shoots of the gun
and now were falling down
now wake up before you hit the
ground.
Pt2:
: Sixty-two. :
62
I've been broken in two
where are you?
you left me to die
and now i cry
a broken soul
i just wanted you to know
i love you still but why so shrill
i call your name out into the night
but i don't hear mine
your voice in my head is killing me inside
this is it
isn't it?
i start to sing aloud
i let the bottle tap out
here's the end of the pain
you threw my heart down the drain
i just want to end my pain
i break my promise
now i call your name
who is the blame?
i got my life on the line
now should i die?
i see your face
I'm wasted in this place
names broken to chase
the alcohol i chase down with pills
where will you be?
to see me
drown in my own misery
where will you be?
i want you to see
my broken heart
and dead eyes
you promised to me
this wouldn't be
so why should i wait
i just want you to call my name
Ive been waiting here on broken glass
I'm hoping this will last
you got my heart in your hands
i wanted you to know
when i die i want you to know
Ive started walking suddenly down past the lights
ill meet you at the end and ill make it through this fight
I'm pushing on desperately i need to see your eyes
the lights are fading dim i need to walk up right
i follow down the road and get to your street
i see your humble house i wait patiently
i started to look up and start to turn around
i look to the right red lights and sirens by
then i close my eyes
Ive been waiting here and without a fear
i wonder if you knew
what did you do?
so tight this noose
I'm desperate to see your face
will i die in this place?
was it you the called?
i hope you balled
helpless tears
as my end comes near
i hope you know
you saved me now
they take me away
now i have you to blame
now you have my life
what a sacrifice
you loved me then
and you saved me now
a girl that i loved deeply the one i thought it would be
2 years in pain as i watched her as she tore at my heart
Just so she could fit in that place forever
i drank 3 bottles that night
i grabbed my pills
heres the first part of the song and i wrote the second part today after remembering the night since i'm now sober this took place 2 years ago.
and heres what i sang to the suicide operator:
writing down my last notes
writing down my last thoughts
let this bottle tap out until i choke
let these pills bring the fever
let me body burn into nothing
let me get redemption
let this be my last words
let this be my final decision
im obviously not afraid to die
im not a fool
as much as was a fool for her
this is the end of salvation
my last chance
read this and let it mark
this isnt a suicide note
this is reality
right in your ******* face
don't hate a choice that isnt yours
death conceals me in the mind of a traitor
let this be who i am
the very grave that burried me
out to everyone who knows me
let this be a frozen picture in a reality lost
i found something as my moments go by
"
in death
is information saved in the brain
its NOT.
and its a fact
my last dying breath now
let them come
i can hear a sound of sirens
let me choke
i can feel my heart
its broke..
"
spend the daylight
dancing on knives
lets spend the last time
tonight
and we
are so far now
so ******* far from you
so far i swear
and now
thing are running now
and i swear i dont have much time
and we all
go over now
let this mistake blow over
i swear there be another night
and when i cant wait any longer
i swear that i feel so far from home
and now
i cant wait longer
i ******* swear im so far from you
and i know that surely
that this isnt life
to me
i wish i could see you now
tonight
as things start getting closer now
friction shoots of the gun
and now were falling down
now wake up before you hit the
ground.
Pt2:
: Sixty-two. :
62
I've been broken in two
where are you?
you left me to die
and now i cry
a broken soul
i just wanted you to know
i love you still but why so shrill
i call your name out into the night
but i don't hear mine
your voice in my head is killing me inside
this is it
isn't it?
i start to sing aloud
i let the bottle tap out
here's the end of the pain
you threw my heart down the drain
i just want to end my pain
i break my promise
now i call your name
who is the blame?
i got my life on the line
now should i die?
i see your face
I'm wasted in this place
names broken to chase
the alcohol i chase down with pills
where will you be?
to see me
drown in my own misery
where will you be?
i want you to see
my broken heart
and dead eyes
you promised to me
this wouldn't be
so why should i wait
i just want you to call my name
Ive been waiting here on broken glass
I'm hoping this will last
you got my heart in your hands
i wanted you to know
when i die i want you to know
Ive started walking suddenly down past the lights
ill meet you at the end and ill make it through this fight
I'm pushing on desperately i need to see your eyes
the lights are fading dim i need to walk up right
i follow down the road and get to your street
i see your humble house i wait patiently
i started to look up and start to turn around
i look to the right red lights and sirens by
then i close my eyes
Ive been waiting here and without a fear
i wonder if you knew
what did you do?
so tight this noose
I'm desperate to see your face
will i die in this place?
was it you the called?
i hope you balled
helpless tears
as my end comes near
i hope you know
you saved me now
they take me away
now i have you to blame
now you have my life
what a sacrifice
you loved me then
and you saved me now
