I guess it started really about 6 years ago i had just broken up with the love of my life and it left me feeling very empty and alone inside, she had cheated on me with one of my best friends and had turned all my friends against me, so i went from being very outgoing to a very enclosed person, at the same time my father decided to move to the other side of the country leaving me essentially homeless as he couldnt afford for me to continue to go to college if i went with him so i stayed and thanks to my wonderful grandmother i had a roof over my head.
But i made a mistake of playing an online game which eventually led me to world of warcraft, which as some of you may or may not know can become very addictive, well for 3 1/2 years that game was my life i would work, play WoW and sleep that was it, the friends i still had left because i was never around and i became used to being alone and on my own and now i feel trapped with in it, its been 7 months since i stopped playing that game and have done things to try and change my life but i still am alone, the friends i have made are only in passing such as when i go to the gym ect i see them there but at the end of the night i am usually sat alone in my house watching tv.
Now i am at a point where making connections with people seems really difficult and i feel like an outcast from society, to be fair i am not what people would consider normal, i like anime and am heavily into martial arts. i just dont know what to do to make myself take that frst step.
But i made a mistake of playing an online game which eventually led me to world of warcraft, which as some of you may or may not know can become very addictive, well for 3 1/2 years that game was my life i would work, play WoW and sleep that was it, the friends i still had left because i was never around and i became used to being alone and on my own and now i feel trapped with in it, its been 7 months since i stopped playing that game and have done things to try and change my life but i still am alone, the friends i have made are only in passing such as when i go to the gym ect i see them there but at the end of the night i am usually sat alone in my house watching tv.
Now i am at a point where making connections with people seems really difficult and i feel like an outcast from society, to be fair i am not what people would consider normal, i like anime and am heavily into martial arts. i just dont know what to do to make myself take that frst step.