So I have 2 jobs now and people close to me are worried that I won't be able to handle it, which is a valid criticism, but I feel ok right now. I'm just worried that I might see a repeat of manic phases again and that I won't complete my training on time, which needs to be done by the 19th. I see the signs, but I feel like leaving my religion has changed me to the point that I feel safer in myself because I am no longer scared by Satan or worried that a devil will try and possess me. Getting rid of superstition has helped me a lot. Some things I have accomplished lately that I feel proud of:
-I wrote about a page for one of my novels
-I scheduled and requested off from my main job for the self defense training I need for my work, which is with the disabled
-I did some of my laundry, which had been piling up
-I opened a student savings account with a higher interest rate so that I can save up for law school next year
-I did a bit of studying for the upcoming LSAT, but I could definitely do better on that, but I also scheduled some study sessions with my study buddy, my cousin who wants to go to law school too
-I saw one of the guys I am dating recently, and drove all the way to the city to see him
-I stopped taking the other idiot guy I am dating who is taking advantage of me
-I scheduled my certification exam for my Skills essay exam so that I can get a raise at work
-I didn't cry too much in the past week
-I bought a day planner and started calendaring again
-I stayed at work until close today
-I organized and color coded my budget spreadsheet
Some things I need to improve on:
- STUDYING MORE FOR THE LSAT
-Finishing my online training for my second job
-Finishing my laundry, which will likely pile up very quickly
-Need to go grocery shopping ASAP, I'm down to canned goods now it is getting pretty scary
-Need to clean my bathroom (though I will say that my roommate has been missing out on her turn a lot)
-Need to clean and organize my room again
-Need to be more social talking to acquaintances and new people, and not so standoffish
-Need to stop holding grudges
-Need to work on and finish my Italian duolingo
-Need to collect my mail again from my old place and update my address with the post office
-Need to make healthier meals
-Need to make an effort to cook more
-Need to keep my cool
I think I am doing ok, I just need to stop procrastinating certain things and stay on schedule and on top of all my duties. Hopefully this will help me stay more aware and keep me more accountable on this stuff.