Hi,I could really do with some help and just venting as I have been finding a recent situation really hard to deal with(i'm sorry of this is a long post). I broke up with my boyfriend 5 weeks ago after over two years together. During which time because of his condition he would shout and argue with me and put me down constantly (he has aspergers), I even tried walking away from him on a number of occasions because of it. Sometimes he would split up with me over the smallest thing and disappear for days and the come back as if nothing had happened. I just felt that if he loved me he wouldn't be like that and made a lot of exceptions because of his condition. He was also agoraphobic when we met and I tried to help, support and encourage him to help make his life better. He started joining meet up groups and ended up throwing all his time in to that and exercising, he completely ignored me and never spent any time with me which made me feel unwanted. I also had depression so he walked out on me probably when I needed his support the most.
On the day we split up we had an argument and the neighbour came round because my ex kept shouting at me and they could hear it through the walls. They threatened to call the police and my ex decided that instead of speaking to the neighbour next door he would call the police himself (despite having a fear of them),he told the police that I had gone crazy (which I never I asked him to calm down as it was 11pm and my son had to go to school the next day),he also told them that he was fearing for his life and that he needed to be escorted out of the house. The police questioned me because the neighbours had said that my ex was constantly shouting and calling me names and they heard him threaten to kill me (although I admit he shouted, I never heard him threaten to kill me). The police escorted him out of the house and gave me some information on domestic violence (in case I needed it).
Shortly after I received a letter saying that because of the shouting from my ex, I was almost evicted from my home and made homeless,I have been placed on an order for 6 months and my ex isn't allowed in to my house (he lives 150 miles away). I also had a social worker come over and carry out an assessment and could've had my child taken away from me. I went though a really bad time. I thought I would never hear from him again but a week later he contacted me just asking for some clothes he left behind. He was also going on the help forum we met bragging about being single and telling everyone how much I had hurt him and making me out to be really bad. I told him that I felt hurt by what he was doing. We got talking over the next few weeks and he said he still loved me and that we just needed some time and eventually he would like to get back together. Being still in love with the guy,I told him how I felt and that I still had feelings but felt that I couldn't just be friends when I had these feelings.
Anyway, he eventually convinced me to be friends with him. I was under the assumption that we were to sort ourselves out and then get back together. On the same day he told me he loved me he told me that he had joined a dating site for friendship. My thoughts are that if you want to make friends online, you don't use a dating site to do that. I told him that and because he has messed my head up so much I am now having to avoid him. He is calling me paranoid and saying I don't trust him and I have no reason not to trust him. He's acting like he isn't bothered by the break up and moving on so quickly, I even found out that he has now joined several sites. I know he's single and can do what he likes it's just the fact that he made out he was still in love with me and that we were going to get back together and at the same time joined them.
I really need to go on this other site because I have social anxiety and am due to get CBT soon (cognitive behaviour therapy). I am doing my best to get my life sorted, this site is the only one that's more UK based and they have help information on it. I also don't see why I should get bullied off a site when I have done nothing wrong. He is going on this site still making me out to be really bad and telling everyone he is so heartbroken and that he's lost the love of his life for sympathy. He hasn't told them he told me he still loved me and then joined a dating site or his part in things. He's really popular on the site and despite the amount of times he has spoken about me, he hasn't been banned. I told the moderator because he doesn't have many friends he needed the site as an outlet,but he has really gone to far to the point I don't feel comfortable. I haven't told anyone what he has done. Also because I still love him,I am finding this all really difficult. I have to keep hearing people telling him that he will find someone else and that he's such a nice,good and caring guy. It's just really getting to me.
On the day we split up we had an argument and the neighbour came round because my ex kept shouting at me and they could hear it through the walls. They threatened to call the police and my ex decided that instead of speaking to the neighbour next door he would call the police himself (despite having a fear of them),he told the police that I had gone crazy (which I never I asked him to calm down as it was 11pm and my son had to go to school the next day),he also told them that he was fearing for his life and that he needed to be escorted out of the house. The police questioned me because the neighbours had said that my ex was constantly shouting and calling me names and they heard him threaten to kill me (although I admit he shouted, I never heard him threaten to kill me). The police escorted him out of the house and gave me some information on domestic violence (in case I needed it).
Shortly after I received a letter saying that because of the shouting from my ex, I was almost evicted from my home and made homeless,I have been placed on an order for 6 months and my ex isn't allowed in to my house (he lives 150 miles away). I also had a social worker come over and carry out an assessment and could've had my child taken away from me. I went though a really bad time. I thought I would never hear from him again but a week later he contacted me just asking for some clothes he left behind. He was also going on the help forum we met bragging about being single and telling everyone how much I had hurt him and making me out to be really bad. I told him that I felt hurt by what he was doing. We got talking over the next few weeks and he said he still loved me and that we just needed some time and eventually he would like to get back together. Being still in love with the guy,I told him how I felt and that I still had feelings but felt that I couldn't just be friends when I had these feelings.
Anyway, he eventually convinced me to be friends with him. I was under the assumption that we were to sort ourselves out and then get back together. On the same day he told me he loved me he told me that he had joined a dating site for friendship. My thoughts are that if you want to make friends online, you don't use a dating site to do that. I told him that and because he has messed my head up so much I am now having to avoid him. He is calling me paranoid and saying I don't trust him and I have no reason not to trust him. He's acting like he isn't bothered by the break up and moving on so quickly, I even found out that he has now joined several sites. I know he's single and can do what he likes it's just the fact that he made out he was still in love with me and that we were going to get back together and at the same time joined them.
I really need to go on this other site because I have social anxiety and am due to get CBT soon (cognitive behaviour therapy). I am doing my best to get my life sorted, this site is the only one that's more UK based and they have help information on it. I also don't see why I should get bullied off a site when I have done nothing wrong. He is going on this site still making me out to be really bad and telling everyone he is so heartbroken and that he's lost the love of his life for sympathy. He hasn't told them he told me he still loved me and then joined a dating site or his part in things. He's really popular on the site and despite the amount of times he has spoken about me, he hasn't been banned. I told the moderator because he doesn't have many friends he needed the site as an outlet,but he has really gone to far to the point I don't feel comfortable. I haven't told anyone what he has done. Also because I still love him,I am finding this all really difficult. I have to keep hearing people telling him that he will find someone else and that he's such a nice,good and caring guy. It's just really getting to me.