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dea
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hi.. i dont usually do this, posting/forum stuff, so bear with me here.. anyways, i just wanted to .. well i dont know what the hell i wanted, but i NEED some people so badly. im obviously new on this forum, but i expect ill be around for awhile.. i dont want to commit suicide, and i have a wonderful family, a family I'd kill to be with right now.. I have friends at home.. I have a gorgeous daughter, and a wonderful husband who i wish I didnt have.
im so lonely. I dont even know what the point of writing this post is, I really dont.. I dont know what I expect from you people. I dont know why you all should care when you all have your own problems too. I just wish that I could stop feeling. I wish I could just float through each day without caring or thinking or feeling. I wish i could go through the next however long on autopilot until things are better. I wish i could just give up trying, but I cant. and i most of all, wish that i could stop hoping. I'm just so lost and I have been for so long. is it me? do i want too much? do i expect too much from the world? i just dont f*king know its driving me crazy.
im so lonely. I dont even know what the point of writing this post is, I really dont.. I dont know what I expect from you people. I dont know why you all should care when you all have your own problems too. I just wish that I could stop feeling. I wish I could just float through each day without caring or thinking or feeling. I wish i could go through the next however long on autopilot until things are better. I wish i could just give up trying, but I cant. and i most of all, wish that i could stop hoping. I'm just so lost and I have been for so long. is it me? do i want too much? do i expect too much from the world? i just dont f*king know its driving me crazy.