Angelight
Active member
Things went to hell again!! Stupid **** ex screwed me over. She lures me in by promising to help me make friends and eventually get a lover because she knows that I'm very very lonely and depressed but then she brags about all the good things that happen to her and she ends up ditching me to go enjoy her happy little **** life. **** her! Here's what happened, I was texting her while listening to my music like usual. Just chilling. Then she slapped me hard by telling me she's gonna go on a date with her bf on Halloween when she was GOING to try to take me out walking around town and introduce me to some of her friends. Then she kept apologizing and I got pissed off and took off my headphones only to hear my mother and my uncle getting into a bloody fight. It was after hearing that I missed out on everything basically, my uncle got extremely mad at my mom and slapped her and made her run into the bathroom. Then telling my ex this because she wanted to know what was going on, she started said how sorry she was and that she didn't know. I snapped. Once my parents were gone I started cutting and clawing at my wrists in fury and let that ***** of an ex know exactly what I was doing to make her feel guilty for dumping all this honeysuckle on me constantly and all the trauma she put me through finally screwed me over. I even sent her pictures! She started crying and called me but I didn't want to hear any of her crap so I hung up. Right now it's a day later and she doesn't even want to talk to me, she'd rather be talking to that stupid bf of hers. Meanwhile I'm debating on whether or not to keep ripping up flesh out of hate and fury. I can't take this honeysuckle anymore!! This shouldn't be happening to me!! Now she thinks I'm psychotic which I basically am thanks to all the crap that stupid girl put me through. All it took was this fight between my parents to set me over the edge. I pin most of the blame though on the ex though, the one person that was SUPPOSED to be helping me, not screwing me over!! Now I'm on a vengeance mission, I'm trying to weed out every single way I can destroy her life. Anything at all will work, I've already started by letting her feel ever so guilty about the treatment she's been giving me. So now that all is said and done and the blood's been spilt, should I go get help or let myself wander even further into madness so that this little screw up of her's can haunt her forever?