PurpleHaze
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I am a nineteen year old Computer Science student. I have Aspegers (and so do a lot of people here) and what that means is that I cannot form empathetic connections or be able to love. I also cannot get male friends but I have plenty of female acquaintances. Long story short this resulted in me never having a girlfriend, kissing a girl, having sex, cuddling, hugging, etc.
The idea of seeing if a prostitute would help my issues has been in my head for over a year and due to my OCD I was obsessively thinking about it every single day. I decided to snort cocaine alone for the first time and got high enough that I finally had the confidence to call over a high class escort. She showed up at my house midnight and was really sweet, she even tried to talk me out it saying I should value my virginity. I didn't care to explain the whole Incel/Aspergers issue so I just told her it was okay and I wouldn't regret it.
Yes the sex was obviously amazing but that is not the point of this thread nor the story I want to tell. What I found that I enjoyed more than the sex was the physical intimacy. I can just masturbate to get an orgasm, but never in my life have I cuddled up next to a pretty girl and felt that human warmth. She smelled really nice and it felt amazing to have her body next to mine and her hands rubbing my body. The way she kissed my neck and nibbled on my ear made it feel like I had a girl who actually cared about me.
You can hire an escort/prostitute and not have sex with them if this is something that makes you feel uncomfortable. You can simply pay for an hour and just spend it cuddling and talking. It made me feel really happy.
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The idea of seeing if a prostitute would help my issues has been in my head for over a year and due to my OCD I was obsessively thinking about it every single day. I decided to snort cocaine alone for the first time and got high enough that I finally had the confidence to call over a high class escort. She showed up at my house midnight and was really sweet, she even tried to talk me out it saying I should value my virginity. I didn't care to explain the whole Incel/Aspergers issue so I just told her it was okay and I wouldn't regret it.
Yes the sex was obviously amazing but that is not the point of this thread nor the story I want to tell. What I found that I enjoyed more than the sex was the physical intimacy. I can just masturbate to get an orgasm, but never in my life have I cuddled up next to a pretty girl and felt that human warmth. She smelled really nice and it felt amazing to have her body next to mine and her hands rubbing my body. The way she kissed my neck and nibbled on my ear made it feel like I had a girl who actually cared about me.
You can hire an escort/prostitute and not have sex with them if this is something that makes you feel uncomfortable. You can simply pay for an hour and just spend it cuddling and talking. It made me feel really happy.
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