Randomact164
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So i havent posted here in a while but here goes...
So for the last week ive felt like just exploding! i just want to drive down the steet a billion miles an hour and crash into the first undeserving person i see to show them how i feel.
Around my house i have a pregnant mom and a step dad (except when i go to my dads house), and no im quite comfortable with the divorce considering they got it when i was 4.
So around my moms house i mianly stay in my room to avoid trouble so trouble finds me instead.
So instead of fighting back and do the right thing and just respect my mother and bite my tongue. my tongue is swollen now (metaphoricly)
School is like going though the motions day by day. sit,read,move,sit,read,study,work,etc.
IM JUST SO SICK OF THIS!
everyday is see peers tha dont even try even though they are givin this chance to make something of themselves. Yet i do not know where i want to head in life, thinking along game designer b/c i like the creativity behind it.
I also have finals coming up in a week and need this 3.2+ cumulative GPA. SO this leads up to nervous energy.
I also Have a mind that never ceases to think maybe i would to sleep.
O and also i Hate out education system! Its just conditioning this kids into mindless ******* zombies and you know what? i sometimes envy them for he saying "ignorance is bliss". THis is driving me insane, yet i manage to walk back away from the edge which portrays insanity and sanity, back to the side which is social acceptable. And no im not crazy, just really frustrated.
I feel contained
I feel nervous
I feel like im about to EXPLODE!
I FEE LIKE BUSTING OUTA HERE!
anyway for me to calm down...?
i have my own fix which is to play my guitar out in fresh air which is only a temporary fix until m feet touch cold tile behing the sliding glass.
btw... i dont care how i spell, and if u care to comment on my spelling then stfu ive had a long ass week.
So for the last week ive felt like just exploding! i just want to drive down the steet a billion miles an hour and crash into the first undeserving person i see to show them how i feel.
Around my house i have a pregnant mom and a step dad (except when i go to my dads house), and no im quite comfortable with the divorce considering they got it when i was 4.
So around my moms house i mianly stay in my room to avoid trouble so trouble finds me instead.
So instead of fighting back and do the right thing and just respect my mother and bite my tongue. my tongue is swollen now (metaphoricly)
School is like going though the motions day by day. sit,read,move,sit,read,study,work,etc.
IM JUST SO SICK OF THIS!
everyday is see peers tha dont even try even though they are givin this chance to make something of themselves. Yet i do not know where i want to head in life, thinking along game designer b/c i like the creativity behind it.
I also have finals coming up in a week and need this 3.2+ cumulative GPA. SO this leads up to nervous energy.
I also Have a mind that never ceases to think maybe i would to sleep.
O and also i Hate out education system! Its just conditioning this kids into mindless ******* zombies and you know what? i sometimes envy them for he saying "ignorance is bliss". THis is driving me insane, yet i manage to walk back away from the edge which portrays insanity and sanity, back to the side which is social acceptable. And no im not crazy, just really frustrated.
I feel contained
I feel nervous
I feel like im about to EXPLODE!
I FEE LIKE BUSTING OUTA HERE!
anyway for me to calm down...?
i have my own fix which is to play my guitar out in fresh air which is only a temporary fix until m feet touch cold tile behing the sliding glass.
btw... i dont care how i spell, and if u care to comment on my spelling then stfu ive had a long ass week.