Lonesome Crow
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I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately. Today something came up and hitted me like a ton of bricks. I feel very fustrated with myself
and everyone.
I'm sicked and tired of how my life had been going.
I know I havn't been well for the past year.
I want to get well. I been working really hard but for some
reason I feel like I'm at this plato that I just can't seem to get
over. I've been here at this cross road before.
I'm fucken sick and tire of people telling what I should feel
or shouldn't feel. I'm sick and tired of always being told I
was to blame. I'm sick and tired of people telling me that
I chose to play the fucken victim role...will i fucken don't.
I'm sick and tire of people tell'in me my thinking is all messed up
I'm fucken sick and tire of people tell'in what i belive or don't
belive in.
I'm sick and tire of people tell'in me onething and acting the opposite.
I don't wait up every god **** morning wishing and hoping
to be used and abused. I'm sick and tired of getting the fucken
blame while my abuse gets away with it...
Yes...it's messed up as hell...My fucken abusers are my fucken
family members and are the ones I love very much and hold dear
to my heart.
I was abused as a child by my father. I Love my father very much.
All the relationships I've gotten involve with were abusive relatioships.
I'm fucken sick and tire of getting the fucken stima becuase I'm a guy..
that people assume I'm the fucken abuser.
No one and no one will listen to me and thinks and assume I'm fucken
lying.
My ex-gf used and abused me to the fucken core...I love her very much...
Yes I run back to her and want her . I feel like I'm going to
fucken died to live without her. It's the same feeling I have for my
father. She fucken gets away with every fucken thing.
A free fucken pass becuase she a woman with fucken boobs.
I been in recovery for a long ass time. And half of the fucken
time I feel more fucken crazy than i was with out it.
I need help god **** it...sorry that i don't have fucken
boobs and my life is a god **** mess becuase of all the
wreackage...that i don't get your fucken attention
i want to go out and get messed up out of my fucken mind.
i cared...I fucken all these years. It's fucken piontless for
me to stay fucken sober and tire to do good...I get fucken
blame for all the honeysuckle and have to deal with the fucken consiquences
anyways....I might as will catch a fucken buzz and get fucken
high and have fun.
Who fucken care....i won't prove anyone fucken wrong anymore.
You want me to be a worthless piece of honeysuckle...you got it.
I'm sick of all this fucken honeysuckle.
And why in the fresia is it that I always fall in love with a phyco *****...I'm tire.
and everyone.
I'm sicked and tired of how my life had been going.
I know I havn't been well for the past year.
I want to get well. I been working really hard but for some
reason I feel like I'm at this plato that I just can't seem to get
over. I've been here at this cross road before.
I'm fucken sick and tire of people telling what I should feel
or shouldn't feel. I'm sick and tired of always being told I
was to blame. I'm sick and tired of people telling me that
I chose to play the fucken victim role...will i fucken don't.
I'm sick and tire of people tell'in me my thinking is all messed up
I'm fucken sick and tire of people tell'in what i belive or don't
belive in.
I'm sick and tire of people tell'in me onething and acting the opposite.
I don't wait up every god **** morning wishing and hoping
to be used and abused. I'm sick and tired of getting the fucken
blame while my abuse gets away with it...
Yes...it's messed up as hell...My fucken abusers are my fucken
family members and are the ones I love very much and hold dear
to my heart.
I was abused as a child by my father. I Love my father very much.
All the relationships I've gotten involve with were abusive relatioships.
I'm fucken sick and tire of getting the fucken stima becuase I'm a guy..
that people assume I'm the fucken abuser.
No one and no one will listen to me and thinks and assume I'm fucken
lying.
My ex-gf used and abused me to the fucken core...I love her very much...
Yes I run back to her and want her . I feel like I'm going to
fucken died to live without her. It's the same feeling I have for my
father. She fucken gets away with every fucken thing.
A free fucken pass becuase she a woman with fucken boobs.
I been in recovery for a long ass time. And half of the fucken
time I feel more fucken crazy than i was with out it.
I need help god **** it...sorry that i don't have fucken
boobs and my life is a god **** mess becuase of all the
wreackage...that i don't get your fucken attention
i want to go out and get messed up out of my fucken mind.
i cared...I fucken all these years. It's fucken piontless for
me to stay fucken sober and tire to do good...I get fucken
blame for all the honeysuckle and have to deal with the fucken consiquences
anyways....I might as will catch a fucken buzz and get fucken
high and have fun.
Who fucken care....i won't prove anyone fucken wrong anymore.
You want me to be a worthless piece of honeysuckle...you got it.
I'm sick of all this fucken honeysuckle.
And why in the fresia is it that I always fall in love with a phyco *****...I'm tire.