Poueff
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I want to make this quick. Really don't want to spend much time on it, since it is of less importance compared to everyone else's problems.
I have no self-esteem problems. None whatsoever. Also no social problems and none of the kind. I am able to be the leader of a group in most situations. Like a couple of months ago I went to the movie with the kids (older than me - I'm 13) of some of my mom's co-workers. They're cool, and we were friends beforehand. Didn't have much contact with them since the only time I'm able to talk to them (in this case, 2 girls and 2 guys, all in the same condition as I am with each other) is in Christmas parties and some summer events of the company. I was the "leader" of the group in that case. Same thing with when I go out to parties that don't involve any of my school "friends", nor have any relation to school.
Cause, in their eyes, my value is plain 0. I don't have a gf in school for a long time for that reason, cause they already know me and, while I'm not friend-zoned to death, I'm nothing at all. When I try to talk to them, I'm either ignored or met by standard answer. They're pretty friendly to each other, and in times also to me, but it's as if I was less than an acquaintance. I'm sure if I entered this year in my class I could be the "leader" (even though I hate using that word) or at least have some value, while everyone else keeps walking around in pairs or doing their own crap, ignoring me.
I hate school in general. No, I'm not bullied, but going there is a waste of time. Most of what they teach is useless (algebra, portuguese as a whole, and a large part of other subjects aswel, while I gotta say, science, geography, chemistry and the such are useful and actually teach us something we may need to know) and recess bores me, my friends barely give a honeysuckle, and I can't be with those that I do like (the ones from the class I was in 6th grade) and that also like me. Not being able to go out without a pre-text planned for 5 weeks and being in the sight of at least 2 adults also hurts it, since I could socialize at night and stuff, with new people. People that don't know me, which is always easier to talk to than to people who walk around with their besties and ignore everyone else.
I have no self-esteem problems. None whatsoever. Also no social problems and none of the kind. I am able to be the leader of a group in most situations. Like a couple of months ago I went to the movie with the kids (older than me - I'm 13) of some of my mom's co-workers. They're cool, and we were friends beforehand. Didn't have much contact with them since the only time I'm able to talk to them (in this case, 2 girls and 2 guys, all in the same condition as I am with each other) is in Christmas parties and some summer events of the company. I was the "leader" of the group in that case. Same thing with when I go out to parties that don't involve any of my school "friends", nor have any relation to school.
Cause, in their eyes, my value is plain 0. I don't have a gf in school for a long time for that reason, cause they already know me and, while I'm not friend-zoned to death, I'm nothing at all. When I try to talk to them, I'm either ignored or met by standard answer. They're pretty friendly to each other, and in times also to me, but it's as if I was less than an acquaintance. I'm sure if I entered this year in my class I could be the "leader" (even though I hate using that word) or at least have some value, while everyone else keeps walking around in pairs or doing their own crap, ignoring me.
I hate school in general. No, I'm not bullied, but going there is a waste of time. Most of what they teach is useless (algebra, portuguese as a whole, and a large part of other subjects aswel, while I gotta say, science, geography, chemistry and the such are useful and actually teach us something we may need to know) and recess bores me, my friends barely give a honeysuckle, and I can't be with those that I do like (the ones from the class I was in 6th grade) and that also like me. Not being able to go out without a pre-text planned for 5 weeks and being in the sight of at least 2 adults also hurts it, since I could socialize at night and stuff, with new people. People that don't know me, which is always easier to talk to than to people who walk around with their besties and ignore everyone else.