Well , i never had any interests for girls when i was 18 or so. I had a little social anxiety then and going through the "playbook" of dating seemed a drag for me.
But one day, i go out as a wingman of sorts for one of my "x-friend" and the girl he was meeting took a liking to me. And in a way "forced" me to become her boyfriend.
Were together now for 5 years + . She is mostly like me . We get along fine, but we often sink into depression together.
- We have no friends, of any sorts. I had but lost them and so did she, Some of her male friends just wanted to be with her and tried to take her to the sea, camping etc .Without ME of course and they also repetitively stated she should break up with me and hang with them.
She had a hard time breaking up those ties, cause she always wondered what it would be like to have a "gang" to hang out with and do stuff. So she chose to stay with me instead of having some new rich bf with allot of connections.
Now every time she screams cause she is lonely and bored, i cant help of thinking it is my fault.
In the first years of our relationship, i had a small social circle that we used to do stuff with, but jealousy, drugs, abuse , torn those ties to shreds.
We have money just barely to get by from month to month . We cannot afford trips and so on to have fun . Our only option of fun is to stay and watch something or play on PC.
After she comes from work she doesn't want to go out and seek some activity, so just walking around in a park is not a option.
While writing this i forgot the main reason of this thread . What can i do ? To make our lives together better ? More fun ? More alive ....
As much as i though about it , money makes the world go round. So without it , you are dead in more ways than one.
But one day, i go out as a wingman of sorts for one of my "x-friend" and the girl he was meeting took a liking to me. And in a way "forced" me to become her boyfriend.
Were together now for 5 years + . She is mostly like me . We get along fine, but we often sink into depression together.
- We have no friends, of any sorts. I had but lost them and so did she, Some of her male friends just wanted to be with her and tried to take her to the sea, camping etc .Without ME of course and they also repetitively stated she should break up with me and hang with them.
She had a hard time breaking up those ties, cause she always wondered what it would be like to have a "gang" to hang out with and do stuff. So she chose to stay with me instead of having some new rich bf with allot of connections.
Now every time she screams cause she is lonely and bored, i cant help of thinking it is my fault.
In the first years of our relationship, i had a small social circle that we used to do stuff with, but jealousy, drugs, abuse , torn those ties to shreds.
We have money just barely to get by from month to month . We cannot afford trips and so on to have fun . Our only option of fun is to stay and watch something or play on PC.
After she comes from work she doesn't want to go out and seek some activity, so just walking around in a park is not a option.
While writing this i forgot the main reason of this thread . What can i do ? To make our lives together better ? More fun ? More alive ....
As much as i though about it , money makes the world go round. So without it , you are dead in more ways than one.