Locke
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Yes. I found a old bottle of awful tasting rum in my cupboard, downed the 2 shots that were in it (yuk), chewed a breath mint and walked down to the store.
We talked for a few minutes, but she was busy. I said I'd meet her at the park in a couple hours. I was really wishing I had more rum at that point. I don't usually drink and hate using alcohol as a crutch but I was really nervous.
Anyway, I met her at the park and we talked for over an hour while we walked her dogs. I got the feeling that she liked me because I'm nice to people. But see, I use politeness as a deflection. She's seen me give a bum outside her store money, when I really just wanted the old guy to leave me alone. She saw me help a lady change a tire. It was raining and there was no one else, otherwise I wouldn't have.
I'm not that nice, just selfish. She's just tired of the many jerks that inhabit this area. I did okay, though. No panic attacks, my hands didn't shake much, and I only ran out of things to say 2 or 3 times.
I owe that in part to you guys. Thanks for the advice and encouragement. If some of you think I'm a dork, loser or idiot, that's fine too. I've thought worse about myself. Talking about it really helped me
We talked for a few minutes, but she was busy. I said I'd meet her at the park in a couple hours. I was really wishing I had more rum at that point. I don't usually drink and hate using alcohol as a crutch but I was really nervous.
Anyway, I met her at the park and we talked for over an hour while we walked her dogs. I got the feeling that she liked me because I'm nice to people. But see, I use politeness as a deflection. She's seen me give a bum outside her store money, when I really just wanted the old guy to leave me alone. She saw me help a lady change a tire. It was raining and there was no one else, otherwise I wouldn't have.
I'm not that nice, just selfish. She's just tired of the many jerks that inhabit this area. I did okay, though. No panic attacks, my hands didn't shake much, and I only ran out of things to say 2 or 3 times.
I owe that in part to you guys. Thanks for the advice and encouragement. If some of you think I'm a dork, loser or idiot, that's fine too. I've thought worse about myself. Talking about it really helped me