It's strange, you talk to people online and it seems as if you get on so well with someone. It's great, you think wow there are people out there like me. But it's not real.
There was this girl I talked to online for months. She would get sad a lot and I felt for her because she was the sweetest person I've ever had a conversation with. Whenever she was sad I would talk to her to make her feel better and she'd tell me that I was so nice & after a while of speaking she started telling me that I should go to New York City (that's where she is). I'd tell her sure, she'd get excited. I always hoped the best for her. Finally she got a girlfriend & she'd say she was in love with her. I congratulated her because I know that's the kind of thing she wants. About two months ago I was on this road trip and I would be spending a day in New York. I sent her a message saying I would be there in a few days. I joked that it was because I was stalking a band(I was following a band , but they told me to). I said that if she wanted she could come say hi or whatever. She never responded. She cut off ties. I tried asking her what was wrong. No response. Her girlfriend broke up with her and I tried making her feel better. No response. I tried one last time. Nothing.
I asked a friend about this and she said that people on the internet owe me nothing. I just don't understand why people will be your friend online, but then shun you when the possibility of meeting happens. It's hard. I feel so bad as if maybe if I was cooler or more attractive this wouldn't have happened. As much as some hate to admit, attractive people do have it easier. Idk, but she's such a good person, I can't be angry. I can only wish I had been good enough. I'm tired of not being good enough.
There was this girl I talked to online for months. She would get sad a lot and I felt for her because she was the sweetest person I've ever had a conversation with. Whenever she was sad I would talk to her to make her feel better and she'd tell me that I was so nice & after a while of speaking she started telling me that I should go to New York City (that's where she is). I'd tell her sure, she'd get excited. I always hoped the best for her. Finally she got a girlfriend & she'd say she was in love with her. I congratulated her because I know that's the kind of thing she wants. About two months ago I was on this road trip and I would be spending a day in New York. I sent her a message saying I would be there in a few days. I joked that it was because I was stalking a band(I was following a band , but they told me to). I said that if she wanted she could come say hi or whatever. She never responded. She cut off ties. I tried asking her what was wrong. No response. Her girlfriend broke up with her and I tried making her feel better. No response. I tried one last time. Nothing.
I asked a friend about this and she said that people on the internet owe me nothing. I just don't understand why people will be your friend online, but then shun you when the possibility of meeting happens. It's hard. I feel so bad as if maybe if I was cooler or more attractive this wouldn't have happened. As much as some hate to admit, attractive people do have it easier. Idk, but she's such a good person, I can't be angry. I can only wish I had been good enough. I'm tired of not being good enough.