futurecatlady
Well-known member
So here's the deal: I'm 24 and I had my first kiss a few months ago. I've been kissed twice since then, and all three times I kind of didn't like it. It wasn't awful or gross, just kind of boring and I was waiting for it to end.
I have, for so long, imagined what it might be like to kiss someone. I thought it would transcend the actual physical experience in some way, "fireworks" if you will, but really it just feels like exactly what it is. I really liked both the guys I've kissed, and I wanted something to happen between us, but when the moment came I just wasn't feeling it. Even sitting close to them and knowing they were about to kiss me, I didn't feel butterflies or anything. The closest word I can think of to describe what I felt is--dread.
I am really disappointed that I feel this way, because I want to enjoy it all, and I want it to be fun. I really, really hope it is a temporary thing that exists because of some intimacy issues that I might have (probably due to being single and unintentionally chaste for so long) and not that I am inherently incapable of being excited by a kiss. Is this normal? Have any of your heard of/experienced this?
I have, for so long, imagined what it might be like to kiss someone. I thought it would transcend the actual physical experience in some way, "fireworks" if you will, but really it just feels like exactly what it is. I really liked both the guys I've kissed, and I wanted something to happen between us, but when the moment came I just wasn't feeling it. Even sitting close to them and knowing they were about to kiss me, I didn't feel butterflies or anything. The closest word I can think of to describe what I felt is--dread.
I am really disappointed that I feel this way, because I want to enjoy it all, and I want it to be fun. I really, really hope it is a temporary thing that exists because of some intimacy issues that I might have (probably due to being single and unintentionally chaste for so long) and not that I am inherently incapable of being excited by a kiss. Is this normal? Have any of your heard of/experienced this?