Tealeaf
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They're not much, but it's not like I have much in the first place.
One of them kept pointing out that since I'm in a tech field, guys must love me, which kind of draws attention to the fact that they in addition to people in general aren't exactly fascinated by me and that I'm actually very lonely. He'd make references to this when we were playing games or just chatting completely out of the blue.
At some point in my past I stopped wondering what was "wrong" with me for not being among those apparently beloved women and started making peace with my personality's strengths and weaknesses. The idea of not having a lot of people around me doesn't bother me except when anxiety prevents me from forming the social connections I do need or someone is rubbing it in my face.
I told him to quit several weeks ago and he didn't, and when confronted yesterday after a long argument he got uppity about how I'll never be as much of an outcast as him, anyway. Cool. Enough of that.
The second one was someone I discussed the whole mess with afterward at his request, and things were fine until the next morning when he told me that a friend of his confirmed that the claim my first friend was making only applies to a minority of women. Hot tech girls yes, ugly tech girls no. I only said that my first friend's claim doesn't apply to all or even most and that tech girls are held to the same standards as all women, and he turned it into something that subtly jabs at my appearance.
Because what would I do with a fresh new morning if not take on the previous night's misery from a new angle?
Feeling pretty disillusioned about even making friends online at this point.
One of them kept pointing out that since I'm in a tech field, guys must love me, which kind of draws attention to the fact that they in addition to people in general aren't exactly fascinated by me and that I'm actually very lonely. He'd make references to this when we were playing games or just chatting completely out of the blue.
At some point in my past I stopped wondering what was "wrong" with me for not being among those apparently beloved women and started making peace with my personality's strengths and weaknesses. The idea of not having a lot of people around me doesn't bother me except when anxiety prevents me from forming the social connections I do need or someone is rubbing it in my face.
I told him to quit several weeks ago and he didn't, and when confronted yesterday after a long argument he got uppity about how I'll never be as much of an outcast as him, anyway. Cool. Enough of that.
The second one was someone I discussed the whole mess with afterward at his request, and things were fine until the next morning when he told me that a friend of his confirmed that the claim my first friend was making only applies to a minority of women. Hot tech girls yes, ugly tech girls no. I only said that my first friend's claim doesn't apply to all or even most and that tech girls are held to the same standards as all women, and he turned it into something that subtly jabs at my appearance.
Because what would I do with a fresh new morning if not take on the previous night's misery from a new angle?
Feeling pretty disillusioned about even making friends online at this point.