I don't really have anywhere or anyone else to talk to but sometimes I reach a point where this feeling, a kind of void or 'unpleasant' emotion, comes up and takes me.
I don't really have a name for it, nor do I care so much for names. It comes and goes in intensity, always present. I find it ... interesting that I can create a kind of ... euphoria? lately.
I can find no point in anything except out of habit, and especially no point in finding a full time career in which most of my life is spend slaving away for other people in which the 'reward' is paper or virtual credits. Which is odd because I still go about doing things for some reason. So I wonder why do I do these things and yet find it pointless.
Feel free to comment or talk. I just had to get something out.
I don't really have a name for it, nor do I care so much for names. It comes and goes in intensity, always present. I find it ... interesting that I can create a kind of ... euphoria? lately.
I can find no point in anything except out of habit, and especially no point in finding a full time career in which most of my life is spend slaving away for other people in which the 'reward' is paper or virtual credits. Which is odd because I still go about doing things for some reason. So I wonder why do I do these things and yet find it pointless.
Feel free to comment or talk. I just had to get something out.