SunWeb
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At sunday i was going home and suddenly someone approached me. Who was that ? O_O Very nice girl. If we're talking about beauty level with the system like this -> from D->C->B->A->S She was definitely and A.
She was shining with very good smile to accompany her. It was very easy to communicate with her. Everything was smooth, no storm ahead.
Suddenly i made an act i'll regret later. I don't remember the exact words but i made her smile go away in seconds. I didn't use strong language but was rude and the meaning was that i don't want to see her. She turned around and go away. After i get in my head what the hell did i do she was gone and i couldn't find her. The only thing i wanted that time was atleast appologize.
That wasn't the first time pretty girl approaching me and i rejected her directly or not(for example just turned around happy and go away only few hours later to understand what the F did i do).
Possibly it has something to do with the fact i was rejected so many times and combined with my low self-esteem i subconsciously trying to hurt someone and myself in the process as well.
Its funny and sad, girls of C and B classes of beauty rejecting me as i move. But when girls of higher class approaching me i made some stupid thing like the one described in my post.
I was always hated at school by girls, they always were try to down me and it worked. If you have a problem with the guy and words aren't an option you can solve it with the fists, if you have problem with the girl you do nothing but shut yourself slowly.
Beauty is not a key factor for me but possibly its one of the variables that play around with my self-esteem.
Any thoughts on helping to resolve this problem ?
I am too depressed right now to find the answer. And if by some luck i'll be in 1 step to get a girl i might screw up again.
She was shining with very good smile to accompany her. It was very easy to communicate with her. Everything was smooth, no storm ahead.
Suddenly i made an act i'll regret later. I don't remember the exact words but i made her smile go away in seconds. I didn't use strong language but was rude and the meaning was that i don't want to see her. She turned around and go away. After i get in my head what the hell did i do she was gone and i couldn't find her. The only thing i wanted that time was atleast appologize.
That wasn't the first time pretty girl approaching me and i rejected her directly or not(for example just turned around happy and go away only few hours later to understand what the F did i do).
Possibly it has something to do with the fact i was rejected so many times and combined with my low self-esteem i subconsciously trying to hurt someone and myself in the process as well.
Its funny and sad, girls of C and B classes of beauty rejecting me as i move. But when girls of higher class approaching me i made some stupid thing like the one described in my post.
I was always hated at school by girls, they always were try to down me and it worked. If you have a problem with the guy and words aren't an option you can solve it with the fists, if you have problem with the girl you do nothing but shut yourself slowly.
Beauty is not a key factor for me but possibly its one of the variables that play around with my self-esteem.
Any thoughts on helping to resolve this problem ?
I am too depressed right now to find the answer. And if by some luck i'll be in 1 step to get a girl i might screw up again.